I can relate a lot to the OP. Similar cycles of thought keep repeating. One thing that helps me meditate and calm my mind is going for walks. Someone ones told me that walking helps stimulate the brain to have bilateral movement. So it gets the hemispheres of the brain working together. Plus, looking at the sky, seeing squirrels and trees, and feeling the wind pulls me out of my head. It doesn't eliminate all symptoms but it reduces them. Some days when I am 100% mired in mind activity it can get me down to 75%. And on good days, I can feel really good from a walk.
Also you might see people around the nieghborhood which will definitely pull you into the moment. HAving to interact with a real life physical person kicks up all these emotions for me and pulls me out of my head.
I have my best meditations after taking a walk because I think my brain is balanced, and my body got the work it needed to be nice and calm.
Also sometimes if you can't suprress or shut off the thoughts, finding someone to talk to can help. Like a friend, or for me, because I am a really isolated person, I talk out loud to myself, or "the air" or what ever you call it. Some people call it praying but I grew up with a lot of weird rigid rules about how to "pray" so I don't call it that all the time. But I just talk out loud, to a voice recorder, or the air. And that helps get the thoughts up and out.
I have still been stuck on some issues for years but I can tell that some have reached some resolution.
So those would be my tips for this. Walking and talking.
But I really appreciate just the honesty and open ness of your post because it is such a good description of what some of us go through with this busy mind. And yes it is absoluately a form of suffering. There are lots of people who want to shut off their mind. They drink, do drugs, smoke cigrattes, over eat, take sleeping pills, watch TV until they pass out, and do lots of other risky or dangerous things all to get their mind to stop. I am not saying that to judge them harshly because some people have accumulated more damage throughout this life through no fault of their own.
But if you are trying to deal with your mind in a healthy or "skillful" way then that shows you are actually in a very good place.
Oh yeah another thing I do is write with both hands back and forth. There could be a lot of personalities within "one brain" and writing with both hands helps access either hemisphere of the brain's voices one at a time. Writing with my opposite hand has also helped get me out of my head a lot.
Hope this helped if it wasn't too much to read!
EDIT = my last thing would be please try not to blame yourself or beat yourself up for when this condition worsens. If you can develop a detached but caring awareness of your mind as a whole, including how busy it is or isn't, then your mind can be totally free to run at 10000GHZ or 10HZ. And it won't affect the deeper you. It might not be healthy to try to entireley make your mind an enemey but you can look at some aspects of your mind as alien influence if it helps. That's why I'm saying don't blame yourself. There is a lot of overstimulation in the world so its not your fault to have arrived at a moment of finding yourself this way.
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