Thread: A Visualization Experience

Interesting that you mentioned that, as I did have a go at this again today, and this time, I did get some visualisation again, but by the middle of the soundtrack and not by the end.

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The most notable thing for me this time was that I wasn't able to take the form I wanted and the visuals/sensations were a bit weak (but it was daytime and bright today when I tried, even with curtains closed etc.) but I did become verbally engaged with a creature that had the form I wanted. In fact, I was concerned I was being too vocal in my mind, even before the creature appeared.

Using association, I started to visualise some chains moving or whipping (during a part of the music that has some chains sound effects) and I tried to feel myself holding them as they did this; I found this creature chained and struggling against the chains. I helped him and despite acknowledging that he had the form I wanted, I decided I'd try to just go along with him or whatever. When I first saw the creature I had hoped I would just become him, transferring my will into his but because of the weak visuals and sensations this just wasn't working.

We ended up sort of going several places together and I willingly steered the visualisation's context a bit, and a lot of the creature's actions were partly of my direct will. As all of this happened, he was talking to me, as me, but not me, in a way sort of as you describe, not directly part of my conscious process, so I just allowed him to speak freely. It was interesting because he spoke in a role of authority about willpower and telling me to not allow myself to create doubts and so on about what we were doing "together".

I sort of made him attack some of the other creatures that would appear as part of the visualisation in some tunnels and at one point I decided we should leave the known area we were in. We got on a platform and it went up as a lift and went from being somewhere dark to a bright sunny desert (reminded me of a part of Hunger Games a bit). Because of the pace of the music, changes happened quite quickly to the landscape but overall I maintained its integrity as a desert and tried adding detail such as distant pyramids and other more modern structures. But pretty quickly I myself found that I was being too ambitious for how weak the visuals were feeling. I wasn't feeling the sand or the scene in an authentic way and felt that because of the weak visuals I couldn't create detail close to me and the creature.

So after that, I decided we should go back down into the tunnels, eventually we reached a point where other creatures were starting to be more common (especially shadow creatures that he would crush around their necks) and at this point I was having some doubts about something and he insisted that I stop having these doubts, or he would crush my neck, also, starting to do so lightly as a brief example of what he was going to do; because of his size it only took two fingers around my neck, and this I did feel more clearly. At one point, I had doubted yet again, and he threatened once more; but I told him to devour me instead then. I decided it would make more sense in terms of joining directly with him. For most of the visualisation I walked either alongside him or on his back/neck.

I don't remember anymore now where the visualisation ended exactly but after a while I wasn't able to maintain the visualisation and after that point I just returned to listening to the music only, without further visualisations.

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I think something important for me this time was that before trying all of this again today, I decided I wouldn't allow myself to think about success or failure, and that I would allow myself to be carried wherever this took me, so that I didn't create expectations about what would happen. There were a few interruptions/annoyances at the start and before the end, but even so, I'd say it went well, since I did have some degree of visualisation without feeling like I'd forced it or anything like that.

Edit: I've expanded some details about the visualisation and tried to tidy up my post a bit more.