Hi guys. I now finaly want to practice for real to LD. I have practiced "unprofesionaly" for my self for a long time. And so far the best way for me is, as far as i can tell for now, when I try to enter while falling asleep. I am a big fan of binaural beats anyway and I use them to meditate and falling asleep and they help me big time.

But here is my problem. I lay down and relax, i focus on breathing. Then i start to see bright lights sometimes just white, sometimes very colorfull and on good days some amazing geometric forms along as well. But allways it goes down the same way. I look at it as if through a window or a door. So when I decide to pass through to fully enjoy the "other world" the door "contracts" like a muscle and i cant pass through. I then come back to full awareness and he process starts over again.

It just feels as if there is something holding me back, is feard to go through, that i cant controll, because I want to go through so hard but it wont let me.
Anyone knows how to solve this?

Cheers Michael