I don't know for sure what my first LD was, because I had them every once in a blue moon since I was little, and I didn't make a significant thing of them nor always make records of them because I never realized they were “special”. So there are a few possible candidates:
The earliest possible recorded instance of lucidity or semilucidity was in a diary I kept at ten years of age: a bad dream where I said I “tried to do what I thought would end the dream, but it didn't work”. My writing skills at that age weren't the best, and my memory is limited to what I wrote, so that's a bit ambiguous.
Later that year, I recorded a dream where I definitely seemed to realize I was dreaming. I had read something in a book or article that said something about (though I probably misread or misunderstood) colors in dreams fading from memory. Apparently I thought it was talking about colors appearing to fade during a dream, and I had apparently been trying for a while to remember to check for this during one of my dreams. In this dream, I finally did, and it did seem like it was happening, though I recognized that it could merely have been “just part of the dream”. Then, having performed my goal, I just tried to wake myself up next (I didn't know any better ), but it took a while because I never seemed to be able to wake myself up from a dream exactly when I wanted.
Earliest LD I recorded after I knew what LDs formally were and that they had a name (about my teenage years) was where I was in my room and studied some sort of model of a building, shaped as a box or cube. I observed one side, turned to look at another, then looked back at the first again and noted that it remained unchanged, thinking to myself that this must be because my mind was able to remember the side and regenerate it during the dream. (Then I tried to wake myself up again… I did this a lot early on; not sure what I was thinking! )
I remember that many of my other early LDs when I dabbled into them were things like this, observing familiar objects or aspects of the dream just to see how my mind handled/rendered them. I still do quite a bit of that today, actually!
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