I had a dream that pertains to this topic.
Real life background: You see my example of "online forum" addiction was not a random example at all. I have recently left an online forum because I realized that I kept participating in it because I was addicted to it psychologically, but I was so bothered by so many things on that forum, and had been talking to my online friends there in private messages about my wanting to leave, for quite a while, but I kept going back. Last Friday I finally left. I had bad withdrawal symptoms, cravings for logging in there again. Finally I realized that I had to have an online forum in my life instead. That's when I remembered about wanting to go back to lucid dreaming. I found this forum, liked what I saw, and decided to join.
Working on my dream recall: At first I had no dream recall. Then yesterday, I was home sick and after nap, I remembered emailing a friend from previous forum. Just a snippet of a memory. Around 4am today, I woke up sad, and while I did not remember about what, but I remembered that it had something to do with the forum I left and that I had logged in in my sleep. Around 6am woke up again: This time I remembered feeling strong anger, and telling a friend "Why would the admin delete this post?!" (This was one of the things that bothered me about that forum: censorship and too restrictive.)
My realization: While I think I have successfully left that forum in real life, in my dreams I have not yet overcome this addiction! And given that it is a psychological addiction which bothers me due to the strong emotions of sadness and anger that it brought about on a regular basis, kicking this habbit in my waking life does not suffice! I am so glad that I am working on my dream recall, because I realize that our moods during the day are influenced by dreams even if we do not remember them. And my dream recall was so abysmal up to now that I did not know I had not successfully left that place. For this particular addiction, I think lucid dreaming is a perfect solution. I was strong enough to kick this addiction finally in real life, and once I am lucid in my dreams, I will get to do it all over again in my dream. I look forward to it!
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