Most interesting. I have a dark side. I wrote about it in my last dream journal entry here and it took everything in me to admit the things I did and I wont repeat it here lol.
The interesting thing though, is that I never encounter that dark self in my dreams.
Don't get me wrong, I have dreams that reveal disturbing things about myself, but they are always hum-drum and basic in nature.
Whenever I kill someone in a dream it's always in self-defense and I feel terrible about it afterwards to such an extent that it usually wakes me up.
I have an incredibly passive and empathetic personality. It's against the essence of my nature to act on any dark tendencies in my dreams because my dreams are as real to me as life itself.
I fiercly repress my darkside 95% of the time. And I loathe myself when I give in to dark fantasies.
But this is MOST interesting. I've taken this topic much too seriously lol Perhaps I'm just sleepy and waining philosophical. I want to meet my dark side face to face and find out why she exists (my dark side is a 4-7 year old girl). Even more interesting is the fact that I have very few memories of those years. Perhaps the stupid phycological/parenting test I took was true and I really am repressing memories.
So now I have a test for myself. I'm not sleeping tonight and I won't sleep tomorrow until about this time. When I do crash I will be thoroughly exhausted physically and emotionally (I have to see the cops tomorrow- err this- morning about some accusations of abuse or something and then I see my sons at the shelter they've been placed in). When I go to sleep I'm going with the determination of meeting my evil twin and trying to see what she has to say. And even if I don't meet her, I'll pay attention to the message of the dream because it could still be relevant.
Thanks for the inspiration lol.
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