Thread: Your Evil Alter Ego.

These dreams make me feel fucked up.

But I have had a couple where I was going around killing people. I wasn't me in the dream. In one I was some sort of weird like fairy princess thing it was very strange. In the dream it was just like... my nature to be doing it (I was stabbing people or pulling them apart or something) and I didn't think anything of it. When I woke up I was really disturbed but figured... it's just a dream, who cares.

I've had like 2 or 3 of those in my life and they always weird me out, just because of the stigma about dreams like that. As far as I know they mean nothing, and as long as I'm doing it my dreams and not RL I'm fine with it, since the feelings during the dream are not very scary. It's not a nightmare until I wake up, and even then it's just mildly disconcerting.

Ive had dreams where i went killing people by ripping them appart/slicing/cutting/stabbing, somtimes lmao doin so. My last murder dream was a few days ago where i had a stick and clubbed a teacher till he died.
I have met my dark side a few times face to face, wich was a bit scary but cool.

In my vision of this subject, our Dark side is our Ego.
The self being part consciousness and part Ego.

Ego is the layer between our consciousness and Reality which makes us view reality in a distorted, delusional, self centered way.
It is my goal to destroy the Ego and it's nasty traits of Self-importance, greed, jealousy, Pride, Control and, above all, it's Ignorance.
Our Egos are the cause of our suffering and the suffering we cause others.
Without our Ego we are free from this unnececairy suffering.

My view of Ego is mostly based on the Buddhist view of Ego, however our Egoist culture has prefered the Greek philosophy term of Ego; Self. That's why most people that speak of the Ego mean the Self. And what a pittyfull thing to identify with the foul being that is our Ego.

Originally Posted by SKA

In my vision of this subject, our Dark side is our Ego.
The self being part consciousness and part Ego.

Ego is the layer between our consciousness and Reality which makes us view reality in a distorted, delusional, self centered way.
It is my goal to destroy the Ego and it's nasty traits of Self-importance, greed, jealousy, Pride, Control and, above all, it's Ignorance.
Our Egos are the cause of our suffering and the suffering we cause others.
Without our Ego we are free from this unnececairy suffering.

My view of Ego is mostly based on the Buddhist view of Ego, however our Egoist culture has prefered the Greek philosophy term of Ego; Self. That's why most people that speak of the Ego mean the Self. And what a pittyfull thing to identify with the foul being that is our Ego.

SKA, I think he was just asking about people's 'dark side'. I don't see it being pittyfull, I think your taking his choice for words too seriously. Its just a topic and something to talk about. But I do agree with some of what you are saying. I don't know if it was intended, or if I'm taking it the wrong way, but I got the impression you were taking this too seriously, like its disgraceful (or, 'pittyfull').

I uh...

try to have sex with people without wanting too...

;__;

Oh boy here I go. I've had several of these dark dreams before. My earliest one being a few days ago, where some punks where taunting and jeering at me, and I jumped into the middle of their group (there was about 8 of em) and attacked em. It was extremely gory. I remember the last person I attacked, I pounced on him, knocking him to his back, tore out his throat with my bare hand, and ate it.

Of course, I already know why I have this alter ego, a lot of it has to do with surpressed frustration from my earlier schooling years, round elementary school - middle school. Kids at those ages can be especially brutal.

Most interesting. I have a dark side. I wrote about it in my last dream journal entry here and it took everything in me to admit the things I did and I wont repeat it here lol.
The interesting thing though, is that I never encounter that dark self in my dreams.
Don't get me wrong, I have dreams that reveal disturbing things about myself, but they are always hum-drum and basic in nature.
Whenever I kill someone in a dream it's always in self-defense and I feel terrible about it afterwards to such an extent that it usually wakes me up.
I have an incredibly passive and empathetic personality. It's against the essence of my nature to act on any dark tendencies in my dreams because my dreams are as real to me as life itself.
I fiercly repress my darkside 95% of the time. And I loathe myself when I give in to dark fantasies.

But this is MOST interesting. I've taken this topic much too seriously lol Perhaps I'm just sleepy and waining philosophical. I want to meet my dark side face to face and find out why she exists (my dark side is a 4-7 year old girl). Even more interesting is the fact that I have very few memories of those years. Perhaps the stupid phycological/parenting test I took was true and I really am repressing memories.
So now I have a test for myself. I'm not sleeping tonight and I won't sleep tomorrow until about this time. When I do crash I will be thoroughly exhausted physically and emotionally (I have to see the cops tomorrow- err this- morning about some accusations of abuse or something and then I see my sons at the shelter they've been placed in). When I go to sleep I'm going with the determination of meeting my evil twin and trying to see what she has to say. And even if I don't meet her, I'll pay attention to the message of the dream because it could still be relevant.

Thanks for the inspiration lol.