Today I had a weird, crazy dream; very big and bulky one as well, lots of meaningful things happened. Basically, I had a spell cast on me by an old witch (within the dream), which made me slip into a super long dream that was supposed to be a lucid dream. Long story short, I seemed to be lucid from the point of view of dream 1, but not from the point of view of my awake consciousness.

It was a weird dream - probably the most interesting dream I've ever had - and I was actually going to make a thread to see if people had had similar experiences, but the one thing that got me thinking from that dream was how the fearlessness of being aware in a dreaming state, the subconscious actions of someone who's not lucid at all, and the lack of that inhibition of waking up when too excited during a lucid dream, gave me plenty of time to think how I behaved, and I honestly didn't like it. I'm not an angel in my normal dreams (non lucid ones), I'm not a complete jackass either, but there are some things that I hate about the dream me; this was completely different though, it was about ten times worst; I WAS a complete jackass, the kind of jackass I would probably punch in the face if I could.

This is how I woke up from the dream: At some point in the dream I found four girls (maybe slightly younger than me), and they were pretty. I, being on a lucid rampage, immediately chased two of them I particularly liked out of pure lust. This went on for several scenes, and they looked really scared every time. At one point I chased the blonde one down a flight of stairs, and even dreaming she was faster than me; I wasn't even running any more, I was just like a black shroud flying after her, but she was always faster, and I couldn't use my dream powers to catch her. She locked herself in a room at the bottom, and said she was going to end me by casting a spell that would make me wake up; sure enough, after the spell, I felt myself being pulled into dream 1 consciousness; shortly after I woke up for realsies.

I can think of many other instances of me mistreating people, especially women, and animals, and generally doing things - mean things - I don't even think about or wish doing when I'm awake, in dreams in some way, and I get kind of sad about that, because I feel like I sometimes turn possibly pleasant dreams into nightmares full of complications and troubles and conflicts with these attitudes.

So yeah, I'm looking for advice on this basically. I want to stop being Hyde in my dreams; I'm not like that when I'm awake, and I never wished to be - not consciously, at the very least - I'm happy, and I like who I am. Maybe I could target problems like these one at a time and then write a hundred times 'I shall not be mean to pretty women in my dreams', or something like that.

Thank you in advance for the help; I hope I wasn't too incoherent.