Thread: Driving self to insanity-please help!

Hi there please bare with me it may turn out to be a long post. But I desperately need some answers although I'm not sure how much people can help with this one!

I am basically having trouble working out of this actually happened or if it was just really a false awakening. I've had these quiet a few times before(false awakenings)

Basically I am a new mum, my daughter is just over 4 months. I totally adore her and she is our world.

She's being like all babies are, very spontaneous lately with her sleeping patterns which in turn means 1 tired mummy!

So she woke early the other morning and wouldnt go back down again. So I gave in and took her in our room in the hope she would sleep for an hour and then we would both be refreshed to face the day! This was possibly around 6am.

Now I never sleep fully when she's next to me as I'm very aware of her. What happens next seems like a false awakening in my logical head. My illogical head says it was so real it has to be true. It goes like this...

I "wake up" and realise I'm being very untoward towards my daughter (makes me feel physically sick thinking and writing that) I think someone is asking me what I am doing but I'm not 100% sure they are. I then say to my daughter "oh sorry" and pat her knee, all very blaze. It's at this point I must have properly woke up and realised it was a dream and fell back asleep, however, I do not really remember waking up thinking it was a dream and going back to sleep.

I eventually wake up properly and it doesn't even enter my head. I've completely forgot about it. I went and met some friends for coffee with my little girl and then came home in the afternoon. It was at this point that something obviously triggered me to remember it and now I am agonising over it to the point where I can't sleep and I feel so sick I can't eat and feeling incredibly guilty, wondering if it really did happen?

Has anyone experienced this? Has anyone any advice?
On a side note the horrible thing that was happening in the supposed dream is something that is so far from my mind and a bit random too it's something that I would never in a gazillion, trillion years do or even enter my head.

Thank you in advance,

A distraught mummy.

If you woke up, it was a false awakening. I would base decisions on logical thoughts more than illogical ones.

My advice is to learn not to do this again whether it was a dream or not, put it behind you, and move on happily. Your daughter is physically and mentally healthy which is all that matters.

Don't worry too much about it. Our minds are sometimes funny fellas, they really love to troll us all the time.
It's sometimes hard to say if you're awake, dreaming or somewhere in the middle of both. The brain has sometimes problems to enter one of those states so he is like thinking what to do and during that you might see some weird stuff and feel such strange things.
Just calm down and accept it as a joke from your own body
By the way late congratulations for being a mom! ^^