lidybug, Thanks for the response. I found it comforting. I was just talking to my soulmate when this message showed up. So, it's sort of like a sign. Each day I'm seeing more and more synchronicities to the point I can't seem to just brush it off as coincidence.

I'm exactly in the stage of asking why. It's already been little over 6 months and I still ask why. However, I sometimes feel like I am not alone, but the logical side of me doesn't want to immediately accept idea my soulmate is still with me for fear of becoming delusional. I have read quite a bit of books of afterlife and consciousness and still am everyday, but I finally started spending time with my family, started watching movies, eating properly etc. even though majority of my days are dedicated to reading, learning all there is about reality itself, as well as meditation.