So basically i dreamed of killing my ex.
Let me just sum up my 1 year real short.

My ex girlfriend is depressed. And really a lot. Before we started dating, she was in an unhappy relationship with an abusive guy. She kept this hidden for everyone. He was also a cheater. People kept telling her this but she didn't want to believe it.

Fastfoward 6 years he gets a girl pregnant and her eyes finally open so she breaks up with him after getting some advice on not go to back.

Fastfowarding... Now me and her are dating. First few months went great. She went on vacation for the first time ever with me to a different country. We watched movies and series together. An most importantly, i supported her. I wanted to give her all the things that she deserved but never got.

After maybe 6 months we started having alot of fights and i started to see her high ego but small heart. We had a lot of fights because i simply started mistrusting her. And the way she reacted when i said anything just makes things worse.
When we broke up i actually felt really good, because i just felt being used for her emotional needs. And said things like that she doesn't need me, she wants me. Well... Worst thing to say to a guy, but she didn't understand nor tried to. So i felt like continuing this would be a waste of time.

I'm single for a month and a half now i guess. And i just woke up sweating and scared. Took me a second to remember what just happened. I had a dream where i first encountered my ex girlfriends ex boyfriend (the abusive one). He started to attack me so we fought for a bit. I took control and said that we should just talk like men and fighting for a b*tch will get us nowhere. After that we went to my ex girlfriends house.
I don't remember what we talked about actually. The only thing i remember is shooting her in the face and she survived it. Then i threw her out of the window but she survived. And that's when i woke up.
What's the meaning of this?