My guess- You are faced with life demanding more responsibility from you, probably the standard things involved with no longer being a small child. Perhaps you are dragging your feet, for instance not seeking a job, or spending too much time in distraction such as video games or intoxicants. You wish you could be a child for longer and not have to face issues such as supporting yourself, but you also know that things just get harder the longer you drag your feet or fail to do something required in adult life.
Now the part with the paper- It could represent adult issues, such as seeking a job, or studying to do well at something. You thought trying to leave the child by focusing on the paper (finding work, or what ever) would be really unlikely/hard. You end with feeling bad for failing to have done responsible things recently.

Let me know if that fits. Welcome to Dream Views by the way.