Hello,
This is my first post here. I ended up here after searching for "waking up crying" on google. Figured I would post.

So, this is weird. I woke up a little less than an hour ago in full on tears.
I was not crying or upset in my dream, in fact it was a very good feeling. When I woke up and realized what I had just experienced I felt very sad and had tears running down my face.

I believe this dream was part of a past life of mine. I often have dreams of things, times and places that are very familiar to me, but are not part of my waking life ever. Usually the places and imagery are the same but the context of the dream is different.

So here is the dream that I had. Any input on this would be great.

Most of my dreams occur in what seems like a post apocalyptic time. the world is not in "ruins" but seems like it has been largely unused and is in disrepair. The people are all disorderly and crime and drugs have run wild.

Anyway, at some point in this particular dream, a young (early-mid twenties) girl approaches me. She is absolutely breathtaking and in early stages of pregnancy. She smiles as she approaches and then kisses me gently on the lips. we did not speak at this point. If we did I cannot recall. We sat for a while just holding one another, very content, as if we had not seen one another in some time. It felt very familiar. After a little while we went into the run-down store we met in front of. We sit down in front of a shelf full of different medications with extremely high prices. It is apparent to me at this point that she has Cancer. There are many different bottles and packages of pills. she picks one marked 69.99 which is the lower end of the price range at hand. I tell her that she should get a better one and suggest a different bottle that is a bit more costly 100.00. I had no problem in my mind accepting that I would be paying for the pills for her, and wanted her to have whichever one would work the best. We leave the store, and walk down the empty street to a run-down house where several people are completely intoxicated on drugs and alcohol. She and I proceed up to the bedroom where we just sit and hold one another for what seemed like forever, but not long enough at the same time.
I felt so whole there with her. As if she was my soul mate. we had a very complete and unspoken understanding of one another.
At some point in this dream one of the people in the house became loud and belligerent. I felt like maybe he was some relation to her, a brother maybe? as he came up the stairs on an exterior deck she told me to "do it"
So, as he took a drink of alcohol from a large bottle, I threw a tire valve cap at him that was full of burning alcohol.
The flames caught on some of the liquor that had spilled as he drank, and he went up in full flames.

That's when I woke up the first time. (not crying)

I fell back to sleep and the dream picked back up with her and I just sitting and embracing. no words. this went on for what felt like quite a while before I woke up again.

When I awoke I felt nauseous, and completely distraught. I had tears running down my face, and now almost two hours later I am still feeling as though I could burst into tears. I have never experienced anything like this.

I have an overwhelming feeling that this was part of a past or future life, and that she was/is my soul mate. I have never met her in my waking life here, but feel a very strong connection to her. She did not look sickly at all and had a very positive energy.

I can remember other details about the world I was in, details about the lay of the land, the city, some of the forest, and a familiar dirt road through the forest to my home, but cannot see my house. I have had other dreams about this same Time/space/life/location but not about her or this specific situation.

I have an overwhelming fear that I have lost her in time and will be unable to find her again.
Hoping that she might read this and have shared this same dream from the other perspective.