When we feel fear and anxiety our body is telling us that something dangerous is happening or about to happen. This response provoces us to fight or flee. Because of that the mind wants us to avoid feelings of fear and anxiety, since these feelings tell us we are in danger of dying. Therefor it seems very logical to try and control or avoid your feelings. But that usually only leads to more suffering. So I would say that you think that you have to avoid the really painful feelings that naturally will come up in a situation like this.

And when your mother and your father is facing these crises, who will take care of you? When people meet such crises it can be hard to see that people around them also are affected. It seems to me that you want someone to help you to. Have you talked with your family members about this is affecting you? (you don't need to answers, just something you can think about).

I could also recommend a really good book called "The Reality Slap" by Russ Harris.