Thread: Love, Power, what's it about?

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'A triumph.' - New York Times.

Netweek magazine says, "More poignant than Life of Pi."

'Gives The Dark Knight Rises a run for its money." - TIME.

'The best dream of the year.' - Entertainment Tonight.

Usually you are terrified. This time you weren't.
It takes all kinds to populate the Earth, with full variety and interest, and angles of the unexpected.
So you overcame your fear.

And, uh-oh: looks like you copied from a text document. Not using the annoying Word Wrap makes gaps. I do it half the time.
Let me just add at the start, you don't have severe Generalised Anxiety Disorder (eGAD!, man) and Bipolar Disorder (Bondage and Discipline). You have nothing wrong with you but your incorrect thinking, and the doctors' diagnosis.

THE GIRL WITH THE YELLOW HAIR
I think the girl was you - even though you're a boy (means your feminine side, which is receptive, nurting, feeling, caring) - who you loved in childhood but then she learnt, so in that sense seemed she went away. But then returned, probably grown up.
So you were thinking of what you loved about yourself, perhaps in childhood or your early years.
Beautiful, undernourished, spiky which can mean she is short in temper, and can prick you.
But blonde is light, yellow - well I dunno but I only think of sunshine or warm brightness.
Positive anyway, that compliments the other side.
But the kind of yellow blonde that is bottled, sounds fake or desired but not real.

Then you became more natural, your fake shine went, and you filled out from that, became more fulfilled and nourished. Unless it does mean excessive a bit.
You still liked yourself or this part as much.
So this was a part of you you liked, that was at first undernourished, then when you stopped faking it, became real and more substantial.

GRADUATION
You had the the distinct impression that she was 24 years old. Here is a test of ages in dream symbols then.
At 23 you were diagnosed, so at 24 you feel you graduated in understanding yourself or condition, in this healing side to help yourself, nurturing, intelligence, receptive, which are the feminine qaulities. Whatever the female quality can be.

So this learning gave you some prestige, in yourself.
Prestige: Respect and admiration felt for someone or something on the basis of their achievements or quality.
Not so unrealistic. And such are your dreams.
This level, as it does with all, made you insecure probably about maintaining it and the responsibily.
But your career, whether it means in the world or your soul, was dismal, seems a contradiction.
So, perhaps the professor was your ideal dream, to advance in your healing. But the reality was yet to equal it. But still better in your mind or hope than the reality.

You had some ruling status in your mind, or wanted it - the control and power you want - though it seemed ancient or primitive, while modern in connection and communication, within yourself or with others.

FAMILY
If your family was powerful, that can mean they make you powerful with their support, possibly. The meaning of family is powerful to you.
But your mum may be a bit of a stranger to you, though she is there.
Your extended family too, and they don't play a part in your life.
Your father is absent from your life, but you saw him as good, though you hate him.

Your sister, who you like and know well, needed to be a no-show in the negative or neutral here.
Hmm, only your ex was like they are. I'm guessing that must mean that one is straight up who she is exactly. No disguising her, and she is in your face.

I think maybe she means the separation you feel from others close to you angers you just a bit. That can explain why much milder in the dream. Does that represent how you feel toward family members besides sister?

I appreciate your raw honesty, by the way. Probably rare.

NEXT SCENE
You want to be restored to your proper status which has been reduced. It was unfair.

Unusually, this did not anger you, which suggests you claimed your rightful power rather than be enraged. That could fit with the graduation to Professor, who is all about the mind and thinking.

Perhaps, also you realised some time ago - whether 10 years or not - either your ex or the ex-you who you do not associate with now or so much ~- had been guilty of wrong and you see that now how it reduced either her status and favour in your eyes, or else yours. Or both.
But because you have not seen her in 8 years, probably 10 years means her.
So you forgave her. It was a long time ago. It was rational. Emotions didn't have forefront now.

Brilliant, by the way, how detailed you, like so many others, can remember dreams so exact and complete to the last detail. Dream demigods. I have a hard time rembembering one disjointed scene, half the time, before it fades away.

THEATRE OF THE MIND
Next, you give a hearing to what you just did, as you play it out in your mind.
You feel attracted to her now!! Because you got rid of the bullshit, or what repelled her from you. But you reject her advances, haa. But it can just mean you like her again, as a person. And you don't want her to get too close. Not that hurt again.

Then the healing part of you suffers a bit, represented by the blonde doctor, with hair that represents thoughts of light and understanding.
That part of you now has retracted from you a bit, because of how you reacted to your ex at the end.
That is why you don't remember what the blonde doc's fiance looked like. He is a part of you you did not see well.
It upset you, that your healing went this way - a bit off. But not so bad.
You really loved this light and nurturing healing part of yourself. Which is always there of course. Doesn't really go off with someone else.

All this also explains why you were almost totally ambivalent to your ex.
Because you had just pardoned her. She was now neutral to you. Well done.

JEALOUS EX
Then the 'conquered' ex idea rears its head again.
It's never that easy.
The ex side doesn't like that you healed yourself! Go figure!! But's that's the stubborn human mind. It takes many fixes to fix, usually.
The ex hits your healing which is affected.

You, in the middle, the observer of both your sides, goes to tell the light side that already knows.

God, this dream is long. For someone with all these supposed ailments, you could almost be a professor at uni and write a book about it, without thinking about it.
Instead of dealing with, getting rid of, that effect or thought, like you normally would, you get rid of the doctor self! and what effects it has. Get outta town.
Because the ex in your head still manipulates you hysterically, and your good side cannot be blamed.

WAKING UP
Yep, as you woke up, in yourself, you realised the light and healing side has tempatations everywhere for the opposite or darkness. And that her male counterpart in you, the more assertive active stronger-in-those-ways side, should be able to resist them.

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FINAL ANALYSIS:
Yes, you felt like a different person in this dream because you were.
You forgave your ex, after so long, but then whose grip, not surprisingly, returned.
But you got rid of the good side! Though you were right in being so assertive, you should have got rid of the ex - again, as you already had with gentle forgiveness, not the beautiful blonde doc you need now.

Disappointment and failure became a thing of the past, even if temporarily.
It is only natural and inevitable your old ways will try to return to claim their falsity, as it does with us all.
You did get the 'girl;' It was a career success in that bright moment.
That is why you felt STRONG. You conquered your ex-side, your old self, to replace it with the beautiful, healing new one.