Day 7 Update:
Shortly after my last update we had a false alarm for a natural disaster right after my bedtime, and a lot of drama and stress ensued. Fell a bit off the wagon both in LD and meditation practice but I have still been practicing.
I have been noticing around 4-5 oddities most days. Also, I have been trying to positively reinforce the habit of always looking for oddities whenever my brain reminds me to do so throughout the day. It's starting to get a little easier to remember to do this. Another change is that I have started doing reality checks after noticing an oddity, instead of just 'expanding awareness'.
No lucid dreams since the last update. My recall has been usually 1 or maybe 2 vivid dreams with moderate amounts of detail, length, and coherent narrative. Last night I tried a WBTB, and what I did during it was read through the first foundational practice in TYoDaS(concerning daytime awareness of the dreamlike nature of reality). I went back to bed doing the normal mindfulness practice and ended up with 4 long and vivid dreams remembered without any note taking.
I have changed the intentions I set or say whenever I lie down to 'My intention is to be lucid in all of my dreams, to know that I'm dreaming when I am, to have many lovely experiences in my dreams tonight, and to remember all of my dreams.'
Finally, my theory around this lucid dreaming practice has been expanded a bit. I think that looking for dream signs and doing reality checks are only effective to the extent that you really think you could be dreaming. The more you accept that possibility, the more effective reality checking will be. So I've been trying something to help undo that natural assumption of being awake, by trying to argue to myself WHY I think that I'm awake, and seeing if the logic holds up. For example:
'I'm awake because everything is vivid.' Well I've had plenty of vivid dreams.
'I'm awake because everything is stable.' I've had plenty of dreams that are stable as well.
'I'm awake because I can remember back and see how I got here.' Sure, but I've also had countless dreams with a long coherent story, containing extremely convincing memories that I access in the dream. I've had dreams with 'built in' memories from far in the past that turned out to be false on waking, and I'm sure my mind has the ability to make up memories to 'fill in the gaps' during dreams.
'I'm awake because nothing seems off.' Nothing at this moment, but if you look well enough you'll find things that are 'off' even if you ARE awake.
'I'm awake because I wasn't able to breath through my nose.' I have had dreams where reality tests fail like that and I had to just keep trying to get them to work.
The mindset I'm trying to have now is 'You can at times confirm with certainty that you are asleep, but you can never be sure that you are awake. Until you can confirm that you are dreaming, however, live as though what you are experiencing is the external world, or waking experience, so that you don't do anything stupid.'
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