I believe I can call this a success - my first successful WILD ever.


Phase 1: Relaxation
At about 4:30pm today, I lay in my bed with the intention of letting my body fall asleep while staying aware. After letting myself relax rather quickly, time (or my memory of it) started seeming... hazy. Maybe I skirted the edges of unconsciousness for a little bit, but I was still aware of being in my bed and hearing traffic outside. My body definitely felt strange. As if I was more relaxed than I ever had been before.


Phase 2: Vibrations
At first I noticed a soft ringing in my ears. It steadily grew louder, along with a very peculiar kind of energy within my entire body growing in strength. I wasn't alarmed or surprised, just consciously allowing this to happen as much as it wanted. It hit me VERY strong and fast. The ringing, which wasn't exactly sound, became deafening. And the energy overflowed and blasted through my body so hard I couldn't feel my bed anymore. It was the most intense bodily sensation I've had for as long as I could remember. I had a stray thought, "Is this what DMT is like?" I've never done DMT, but these vibrations rocked me so hard it reminded me of the trip reports I've read. All this came in two or three waves.

Phase 3: Mind-Space
I believe I goofed up here. If I remember correctly, in between the last waves of vibrations, my thoughts started becoming very visually present. In hindsight, this was the dream forming. I didn't recognize this. I still felt my body laying in bed, but could also 'see' my room. I assumed this was my strong imagination. I didn't recognize that things were different, just like it would be if I had a dream at night about my room. I saw my mother who also looked different. I just assumed it was all in my mind-space, for lack of a better way to explain it. I started thinking about how I was going to roll out of my body; I was fairly certain it was time now that the vibrations had passed.

"Visualize it" I thought. It hardly took any effort, which is why I think I was already in the dream. Next thing I know, I'm standing in my room. I walk outside and to my stairs. I touch and count these protruding white squares on the wall as I gleefully walk down the stairs. I started to think "Now I just need to stabilize this and I'll be free to explore!" but before I could finish the thought, I was right back in my bed in my real body. Hearing traffic, feeling my real skin, seeing the darkness of my blindfold.

But I did it! I proved to myself that I have the ability to perform a successful WILD.

My clock read 6:52pm. Putting sense to the amount of time that had passed was difficult. Time seemed to stretch, warp, not make much of any sense in relation to what was happening. Thank you for reading about my experience!