Hey there, everyone. 
Been a while since I've taken part in the forums, so I'll just cut to the chase. I apologize in advance if this has been covered elsewhere (and something tells me it has been). Anyway, I've been trying for some time to get into sleep paralysis before going to sleep with the hope of inducing a lucid dream, or perhaps have an out-of-body experience. Now the things that seem to always hinder my attempts are the facts that I produce incredible amounts of saliva in my mouth (even more so when I think about it), and thus I have to constantly swallow or drool all over my bed (which is quite uncomfortable; I can't seem to tell my mind to ignore it once it starts), as well as the irresistible urge to roll over, twitch, scratch an itch or generally move about. I'm one of those very nervous types in general, and on an average level, I maybe change positions 10-15 times every single time before I go to sleep. Now I know this is a common obstacle when attempting to reach SP, but it seems to be particularly troublesome in my case. At one point, it will literally drive me nuts to try and keep the same pose.
So those are the main issues. Another thing is, it's my experience that I'm most relaxed when I let my thoughts drift away without having to guide or control them. Every time I attempt to focus my attention, it keeps me quite awake, which in turn causes me to focus on my urge to swallow and move around. Pretty crappy, right? Last night, I attempted to go to sleep with some guided meditation recording I found on YouTube. All it seemed to do, however, was it made me upset and kind of annoyed, because the woman in the recording kept repeating and putting an emphasis on how I should be relaxed and take slow, deep breaths, and also focus on my heartbeat (which should also be slow and calm).
All I could think of while she was talking was "DUDE, how am I supposed to relax when I know that I'm SUPPOSED to be relaxing, and how can I guide my thoughts (WHILE BEING RELAXED?!) when it exhausts and frustrates me to have to focus on your voice, and how the HELL am I supposed to keep a steady, CALM heartbeat, when the idea of going into SP is exciting me, and naturally making me nervous?" Seriously, how does any of that makes sense? It sounds like a paradox to me, and I just can't seem to figure out a way around it.
What's more is, every time I actually feel relaxed and calm, and my thoughts are drifting away, if I feel the slightest tingle that reminds of SP, that immediately makes me excited and alert, thus my heartbeat starts racing, my steady breathing goes to hell, and to top it all off, my nice comfortable position has been compromised and I feel the freaking urge to roll over again... >_>
So... help?
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