I have been having difficulty with WILDs for a while now. I actually ended up kind of making up something and it seemed to work (everyone has their unique way). So I wanted to run it by you all.

My experience:

I tryed a WILD during an afternoon nap and I did get farther I think then I normally did. I was trying out a new technique that I really though would worked.

Instead of trying to clear my mind, I tryed to think of random things (purposefully lose some awareness). But at the same time I had to watch these thoughts, so maintain slight awareness.

I was getting there, my body felt really heavy, I could not move my muscles (except toes+fingers, I can break SP relatively easily). Also originally the random thoughts were sort of weak like in real life, then they started showing as kind of vague outlines (I could actually see), then for like 30 seconds I even was vividly daydreaming (it was weird, I heard less and less of noises from my house). Then my heart rate increased and I felt like I was looking for the effects of my WILD rather than executing the WILD (so I lost focus). And everything de-escalated in the reverse order from how it happened. Till I opened my eyes feeling very refreshed, it lasted approximately 45 minutes.


Method I used:
So I have tried all the WILD stuff (counting, focusing on imagery, clearing mind/meditating). The main problem I noticed was the same thing always happened, I lost focus and either could not fall asleep or fell asleep fully from loss of awareness.

So I thought about it, actually a previous posting by dms111 here helped a lot, specifically his art of zen link.

But basically a WILD is a balance of being aware and not aware so you can fall asleep. And there is a perfect combo to achieve a WILD. My method worked for me because I am too aware and have a hard time losing awareness/relaxing. I feel like WILD methods should be designed for specific personality types (creative, focused, logical, relaxed, tense, etc.)

So then I had to say ok what is relaxing, relaxing is letting your mind go astray (random thoughts). So WILDs are a paradox, that is why they are hard.

Once I saw what side I was unbalanced on, I just tried to overcompensate for that.

So instead of spending 20 min staring at nothing, supercharge the dream side of the brain because there is no way I have that kind of focus.

Method:
What to do for my method (for people who lack focus, and can't relax easily but are creative):
-Purposely try to think of really random thoughts+visualize (ex. lizards canoing down a river in a airplane)
-At the same time maintain a shred of awareness (keep it as minimal as possible)
-Make sure you are relaxed while doing it (obviously normal WILD position lying down, eyes closed, etc.)


So my question, am I close to a WILD, and is this method ok/make sense?


PS sorry if I rambled a bit, this is either going to make me seem like an idiot or a genius, lol

Thanks in advance