Hi, this is my first post here, I have been browsing these forums for a while, they have been really helpful so far.
I have been trying to do WILDs in the afternoon, a couple months ago I tried a few times, recently I have been trying to start them up again. I have tried doing WILDs at night, before my REM period, and I wasn't able to have one, and wasn't able to fall back asleep, so I had tremendous sleep loss for a couple days, and decided to abandon that since I have exercise and then school in the mornings.
I have been getting gradually closer to successfully having one, but I get stuck right before I transition into the dream. For instance, in my latest attempt today, I got to a point where I couldn't hear outside noises and then I was feeling vibrations, and everything was blacked out (save a point of light moving around my eyes)and I couldn't hear any outside noise. The problem is, my heart was beating hard, not fast, but very hard, and it felt like it was growing larger and larger and larger. I wasn't feeling pain, I wasn't feeling, at least consciously, excited. I tried to stay relaxed and calm but the vibrations stopped, my vision and hearing were back to how they are at stage 1 of WILDing. I let the stages come back through normally, and got to a point where I couldn't hear anything, and all I could see was total blackness, and I couldn't feel anything, I felt like my mind was floating up and rotating in empty space. Then, I could feel my heart again, doing what it did before, I felt like it was massive and couldn't ignore it. Suddenly I heard a lot of white noise and it shot me back to stage 1 again, which at that point I just gave up and stopped trying.
Again, both those times my heart wasn't racing, my breathing was normal, it's just the way my heart, how would you say, felt would shoot be back to stage one. I have been trying hard to not get excited or anything, I feel calm the whole time. Maybe I'm subconsciously in a lot of excitement and anticipation over the transitional stage.
My heart used to start racing when I got to the HI stage even though I would remind myself that excitement will shatter my progress, and try not to get excited. I think I'm just getting subconsciously very excited, even if I'm trying to remain calm.
Does anyone have any advice or suggestions as to what I could be doing wrong, or what I should do to prevent this? Should I just keep trying until I succeed? I realize that it could take a while to have a successful WILD but I'm getting close, and this has been happening for a while so I figured I should come here for help. Otherwise I'm going to just keep trying until I can have one. Thanks!
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