Hi,


Recently I have experienced something quite strange, I have been able to go from a waking state, straight into a sleep paralysis state voluntarily. I have found this is a great way to enter a lucid dream state, but the experiences I have had have been so intense / insane, that I'm quite afraid to carry on with this.

The last time this happened I was lying on my back, trying to fall asleep. I became aware of a buzzing sensation in my ears, and found I could "relax" myself into a state of SP. I could feel my body falling asleep as I stayed awake. The buzzing in my ears intensified and became a very loud screaming which was mixed with some terrifying voices saying all sorts of random stuff. I managed to stay as calm as I could, and decided to remain unaffected by the hallucinations, and began a breathing meditation. I felt myself going "deeper" and eventually entered an extremely weird state which I find hard to explain - I felt intense euphoria, and was seeing amazing intricate kalidoscopic patterns, it felt like I was in some kind of cosmic "womb"! I know this sounds strange but that's the best way I can explain it. At this point I became frightened that I would leave my body permanently if I went any deeper - and managed to slowly bring myself back to an SP state. I opened my eyes and could see my room, but some of the kaleidoscopic patterns were still there. I was able to "roll" myself out of my body and walk around the room. I have had this type of experience before, but this time it seemed much more real. I was walking around my room became aware of some dream-people in the room, who seemed to be watching me. At this point I totally freaked out and woke myself up.

I have had several similar experiences recently, and the main problem I am having is that the things I am seeing are so intense / terrifying that I am getting afraid to go any "deeper". I find I am able to stay calm and meditate to some extent, but after a certain point the weirdness gets too much and I need to get back to reality. Some of the things I have seen are starting to seriously challenge my sense of rationality! Also sometimes the bodily buzzing sensations get so intense that I feel I'm literally going to explode. I'm finding these experiences much more intense than anything I have experienced during standard lucid dreams, and it would be great to hear from anybody who has experienced anything similar and who has any advice for how to proceed.