Hi, so I'm new here because I've had this strange dream and it's not going off my mind.

In the dream, I was walking out of my school and as I left I saw this girl who I know quite well, playing football for my school. I walked across the pitch to head out but the ball was tangled in my feet so I tried passing it back cooly, but I stumbled out of my school with the ball. The girl followed me and did some mocking hand gesture, not offensive but it was mocking me directly. I jumped through the air and crushed her across the fence. I shouted some stuff in her face like "Just becayse you play for Southend, doesn't mean you're better than me". There was also something along the lines of "You understand?". I then kicked her and punched her, slapped her in the face while I was saying this. She then ran out of the school and I shouted F*** incredibly loudly and kept repeating it. I think I was regretting it as this point but also I was anxious.

Some information about me: I'm a transguy so I do play for a girls team, football is my main hobby. I have had some jealous feelings as she got into a team you have to trial for even though I know she's not excellent at playing. She's a little bit taller than me but overall I'd say I'm more aggresive than her. Currently, I'm struggling with an ridiculous amount of health anxiety for fear of a brain tumour, I'm starting to recover from that now though so I'm exhausted. The team I play for now is a good team, we even play against her team but I am finding it hard to fit in to this team, I don't have friends within it and I suffer from considerable social anxiety.

I'm trying to figure it out because it's really bothering me. I hope I've given enough information. Any ideas?