Ok, my dream experiences have been extremely vivid over the past few months. I know the dreams are dealing with my ex-gf in some way or another. She and I dated for the past couple of years, but for the past year, its been on and off (I suspect borderline PD, but she's never been diagnosed). About a year ago, we were going through a break-up, and in my self-discovery phase...I was trying to answer the question, "What is it about me that would want to be involved in a relationship where I was treated unfairly?" Well, a few days afterward, I had a dream that I had just moved in to my new house, and it was my birthday. My parents were throwing me a birthday party, and there must have been a thousand people at my house...except, I didn't know but only two people out of the hundred! So, my father is grilling in the backyard...and I grab a plate, but he runs out of food by the time I get up to the grill. This dream was fairly easy for me to recognize, as it seemed to show that I felt that I lacked attention from my folks while growing up, and my ex-gf showed me a lot of attention, which was heavenly to me. When we broke up, it tore me apart more than any other relationship I've ever been in, and I still have trouble letting go of it.

Well, that said...a couple of weeks ago, I had a dream where it was my wedding day, and I was about to marry a girl that I knew from high school (never dated her, just a girl in a few classes - I think she was in the dream bc I had recently seen a FB post on my news feed from her). In the dream, I kept saying to myself, "this isn't right"..and emotionally, I was scared because I knew she wasn't the person I was supposed to marry...but some people were telling me, it's natural to get cold feet...you'll be fine. I woke up before the wedding happened, basically in a sigh of relief.

So, the dream re-occured, but it was a lot faster and with a different random girl. The emotions were still present, scared and thinking - this isn't right.

Then last night, I dreamed of my exgf. We were walking up a hill at night, and her exbf was walking down the same hill, and we passed each other. As we walked by each other, he said a few words to her...and I lose my cool and try to fight him (he would try to come around while we were dating - I actually fought him one night a few months ago). Well, he keeps walking...but my ex tells starts telling me, "you shouldn't have gotten so upset with him...I iniated the conversation and he was just responding."

So, I come here. I think I know what the dream last night meant. Every time that I found out that she had talked to him, she would always tell me that he had texted her first...but I never believed her. I think it was just hilighting my own insecurity of her actions.

But the marriage dreams, I'm a little confused about. What does everyone think?