In a way, that state never left me. It's just not as bluntly obvious. To move forward, I'm going to actually live my life now. I'm going to try to improve myself in as many ways as I can, and be as kind and helpful to everything that I can. I'm also going to try to see the good in everything (why focus on the bad?). I feel like earlier in my life, I didn't really do much, I just did what was expected of me and nothing more. I did what I had to in order to get by, but now, I want to do more than that, and I realize that I can.