You said "i realise now that the things i say have more than one meaning and go very deep."

I once had a spiritual teacher who told me that during a particular prayer event, one of the participants, out of boredom, prayed for "...the sky to meet the earth." Within minutes of the prayer, a tornado formed and began to advance on the group. The prayer leader settled in and began a chant and the tornado dissipated.

Coincidence? Possibly.

Personally, I have to agree with your assesment of words. To be impeccable with our words is to respect their power. Unfortunately, too much of our culture is rooted in the written word (witness where we are right now and what we're all doing). This has left us disconnected from the spoken word and the understanding of its power.

The spoken word has the ability to set an intent in us in a way that the written word does not, and setting an intent is the core of every spiritual practice from Paganism to Catholicism.

I don't think you sold your soul. I think you abandonded it for a time. And in so doing allowed yourself to create a better situation for yourself.

This is of course, simply my humble opinion.