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Originally posted by AirRick101
I have to admit, I can vibe with a lot of this. I, too, was shipped to a mental hospital after beingsuicidal (stupid me, I let the cops find out in desperation after running out on a therapy appointment) and I lost control from then on until I could come up with a rational testimony and why I should be let out early. I swear, those mental clinics keep you so trapped, and there is nothing productive to do, just have group meetings led by leaders unsure of how to act, watch movies all day, walk back and forth to the main room or your dorm, stuck on the higher floor of the hospital. It's worse than a church retreat.
But even after all that, I'm not really planning to claim some beautiful newfound personal truth, unless I've yet to do that. I couldn't really find one, and it's hard for me cuz this is a time where i don't seem to be learning from my mistakes, especially since I don't know what they are anymore.
Anything can be real to any one person, and I especially used to know what it was like to see Satan act. It's harder now, mabye because I've blended in a lot with the world. But there comes a time where you get the feeling that maybe you should turn back, yet that feels impossible for some reason. It's the most frightening, to be trapped in your very own life.
I know what u mean... i often find myself alone in a corner shaking & falling back 2 old habits. once cured u never really forget the memories, there r times when the anxiety & the depression builds back up & all u go back 2 is what u once knew. 