Please accept my public apologies

**erik** · 08-16-2012 07:17 PM

Hey guys (and girls),

as you all know I posted many things in the past concerning my views of Islam that was based upon my personal experiences and what I realised through mystic yoga.

I am not gonna say that all Muslims are suddenly the best people in the world, because in every religion, caste, creed, cult and whatever what is and what is not connected with spirituality, there are bad people, but in my opinion those are a minority.

Anyway, whether I will be famous with my band or not, whether I will find my girl in heaven or not, whether the Muslims will take over the world in a few days or not, I hereby publicly apologize for the rude, harsh and sometimes very rigid language I used against all who were sceptical to me.

The force behind all what I wrote to you as replies was anger. Because I thought to know the future and that made me angry.

I learned a great lesson from all of this, all these years of getting dreams, inner visions and thoughts that weren't mine + the things I read on the internet or in the Holy Books, I had drawn my conclusion based upon all of these.

I live more peaceful now and even when I was reading a comic book a few days ago about the Crusades and I heard : "Suddenly" when my eye fell on some Medieval Muslim warriors, I am not having the conviction that it is my task to inform the world about it anymore.

Anyway, I sincerely apologize to you out there for my reactions, I regret it very much, it was a phase in my life and I do feel bad about all the language I used, although sometimes it was really funny, but you deserve better.

Cheers

**Empedocles** · 08-16-2012 08:37 PM

I appreciate the honesty in your post, but I have one question:

Are you related to Fechtel/Carera by any chance?

**ShadowOfSelf** · 08-16-2012 08:54 PM

Love how there were muslim dating ads whilst I read that.

**erik** · 08-16-2012 09:37 PM

Originally Posted by Gills

I appreciate the honesty in your post, but I have one question:

Are you related to Fechtel/Carera by any chance?

Hi,

no, I'm not related to Fechtel/Carera, to be more accurate, never heard of them, I tried to google, but all I got was information about Porsche Carera, can you explain who they are ?

**erik** · 08-16-2012 09:39 PM

Originally Posted by ShadowOfSelf

Love how there were muslim dating ads whilst I read that.

Hahaha, muslim dating adds were there also whenever I posted

**ShadowOfSelf** · 08-16-2012 09:40 PM

Originally Posted by erik

Hi,

no, I'm not related to Fechtel/Carera, to be more accurate, never heard of them, I tried to google, but all I got was information about Porsche Carera, can you explain who they are ?

Thats exactly what Fechtel would say

**erik** · 08-16-2012 09:44 PM

Originally Posted by ShadowOfSelf

Thats exactly what Fechtel would say

that's very nice altogether, but still I have no clue who they are, is it maybe a cartoon series on tv ?

**DrunkenArse** · 08-16-2012 11:57 PM

No, ShadowOfSelf is talking about a bigot that trolls our forum from time to time.

**erik** · 08-17-2012 11:33 AM

thankx,

nice, offering your public excuses while changing your life and still being compared with bigots who are trolling the forums from time to time, nice work, ShadowofSelf and Gills !!! Thankx for the understanding !!

**Mindraker** · 08-17-2012 12:13 PM

I hope you find happiness in this crazy world... and religious conflict is one of the many things we have to figure out in our long, complicated path of life.

**ShadowOfSelf** · 08-17-2012 04:14 PM

Originally Posted by erik

thankx,

nice, offering your public excuses while changing your life and still being compared with bigots who are trolling the forums from time to time, nice work, ShadowofSelf and Gills !!! Thankx for the understanding !!

That's exactly what Carera would say

Nah im kidding, chill bro

**Universal Mind** · 08-17-2012 07:12 PM

Originally Posted by erik

thankx,

nice, offering your public excuses while changing your life and still being compared with bigots who are trolling the forums from time to time, nice work, ShadowofSelf and Gills !!! Thankx for the understanding !!

They were just wondering if you used to troll under those names before your rehabilitation.

**hermine_hesse** · 08-21-2012 03:32 AM

Thanks for the apologies, Erik. I'm glad that you have found some peace and an end to anger.

**XaldiN** · 08-21-2012 05:34 AM

Apology accepted buddy

-A Muslim guy

**Original Poster** · 08-21-2012 06:08 AM

Please apologize for using the word public in a redundant manner

**erik** · 08-29-2012 08:03 PM

thank you all for your replies, cheers !!

You must also see it in this light that I had 4 psychosis in the past with two suicide attempts :

1 - February 12th 2002 - June 24th 2003
2 - August 2003 - April 24th 2004
3 - June 2007 - December 30st 2007
4 - November 17st 2008 - kinda ongoing

I might have expressed myself a little bit harsch on the internet, I could have done it differently

**XaldiN** · 08-29-2012 08:14 PM

Stop focusing on your past and think of the future

**Universal Mind** · 08-30-2012 04:42 AM

Originally Posted by erik

You must also see it in this light that I had 4 psychosis in the past with two suicide attempts :

That really sucks. I have worked in the mental health field, and there is something I have never been clear on. How exactly does somebody fuck up suicide four times?

**Original Poster** · 08-30-2012 07:56 AM

God, as much as I can only face-palm at your incapacity to understand basic communication and human relations, I still love you UM.

**erik** · 08-30-2012 06:55 PM

Originally Posted by Universal Mind

That really sucks. I have worked in the mental health field, and there is something I have never been clear on. How exactly does somebody fuck up suicide four times?

The way you fuck up, haha, it's two suicide attempts fucked up, not four, but okay > one : my dose of sleepingpills and tranqualizers were too little and two : the overway I jumped from was only 5.5 meters high......

**erik** · 08-30-2012 07:00 PM

Originally Posted by XaldiN

Stop focusing on your past and think of the future

Thankx,

I will be back teaching yoga soon

**Universal Mind** · 08-30-2012 07:35 PM

Originally Posted by erik

The way you fuck up, haha, it's two suicide attempts fucked up, not four, but okay > one : my dose of sleepingpills and tranqualizers were too little and two : the overway I jumped from was only 5.5 meters high......

Oh, I misread. Being in a state of psychosis is the one way I think a person can screw up suicide repeatedly. I had a psychotic client try to commit suicide by jumping off the second story of his apartment complex. He was way out of touch with reality when he did it. The result was a broken back. I am really skeptical of people who have never had a psychotic episode and have supposedly pulled like seven suicide attempts. I call attention whore on those people.

I'm glad you're still among the living.

**Original Poster** · 08-30-2012 11:26 PM

I find it difficult to label a 5.5 meter leap a suicide attempt. Someone a know cut their arm and nearly died. It wasn't a suicide attempt per se, just an attempt to cause self-harm, but they lost a lot of blood and if my friends weren't there to respond it could have been over.

**erik** · 08-31-2012 11:26 AM

well,

it was a genuine suicide attempt, I wanted to die, I broke away from the group I was in, having a break from the department, and ran towards the first overway I saw and I jumped !!!

The irony is that a nurse sat in the car who first saw me falling and she got out (nobody ran me over) to give me first aid.

Nah, I have a hard head

**Xei** · 08-31-2012 01:27 PM

I say this in every thread you make erik and I'll say it here, too: for your own good, you really need to go to a doctor. Talk about your feelings and your visions and everything. Please go see a doctor.