I was wondering about the soul a while ago (some 15 years already) and understood that the soul is eternal, blissful not to be destroyed by any weapon and unborn.

I understood we have a mind which we can get rid of to go beyond the world of form (Saguna Brahman) whether this is eternal or not.

But not too long ago I openend up a book by Swami Sivananda from Rishikesh called "Spiritual Experiences" and I was reading the following :

"When you throw off the veil of Adi Sakti also, you will become ONE with the pure Nirguna Para Brahman (light and energy as God), Ananta Consciousness, the Highest End of human life (Kaivalya). It is very difficult to rest here for a long time."

I thought : "What the Fuck !!!!"

Nirguna Brahman, the light, the light, supposed to be the highest end of human life and then he says : "It is very difficult to rest here for a long time"

My world fell apart.......I never really believed that the world of form (Saguna Brahman) was the highest since minds are connected with form and minds are under control of God. So God must be light !

Sivananda blew apart and destroyed my conviction and left me with an explosion of my former beliefs, I mean, I am somebody who wants to aim for the highest goal in life and that is liberation from repeated birth and death and be joyfully happy in a world of light in which we have no minds anymore and which will be eternal, that was my conception and my safe haven. To just be spirit !!

I was blown away and had to think to my time with the blisful Hare Krishna's, one day I was chanting a mantra and was thinking about the connection between the mind and the soul, and then my inner voice told me :

"The soul desires to express itself through the mind"

question that popped up was :

"Why"

and my inner voice told me :

"Back to Godhead"

Back to Godhead ??? Back to the world of form ? The world in which we have a mind to express ourselves because that is what the soul desires for ?

So my question is..........Do we have an eternal mind ?

That sheds a whole new light into my spiritual spectrum of convictions I have.

If Nirguna Brahman is unattainable for the soul because it desires to express itself through the mind, then I have to let go of my previous convictions and have to allow a whole new idea into my system and that is that we are forever strollin' the material worlds, even if they are very subtle as heaven is.

Beyond heaven there is the spiritual world........Nirguna and Saguna Brahman.
Since Nirguna Brahman is almost unattainable for us (and appearantly boring), then the best alternative is to allow yourself to think that we have eternal minds.

As the world of Nirguna Brahman can be eternal but not for us, we just have to aim for Saguna Brahman, the worlds of form (with planets in the spiritual skies and real people on it) since we have eternal minds and can enjoy ourselves in Saguna Brahman.

That would indicate that we are prisoners of our minds, but I know places where the mind is filled with love, pure love and devotion, bliss and joy and happiness, now, if these worlds are eternal, so we might have eternal minds, then the truth is different than I always thought as a Mayavadi.

Krishna Consciousness is teaching us about the world of love and the world of form, eternal worlds of form in which love of God is considered as the highest attainable.

In the Bible God wears a helmet, in the Koran God sits on a throne and in Krishna Consciousness all is form, eternal blissful form !!

I have accepted that we have an eternal mind and that makes me peaceful !!