All through life we are forced to assume an identity. Since birth we are told "you have to accomplish x thing to be somebody."
I've been noticing recently how I take on different roles in life. When i'm with my friends i become the guy they are friends with. At home I'm the youngest sibling. On youtube i am "that guitarist guy". All those are things i have worked on. however if i wear a woolen sweater to the local pub I am labelled a "fag". If i wear an Iron Maiden shirt to a party I am somehow a metal head, even though i don't have long hair and prance around giving everyone the devil sign as if it's the metal sign for "peace". If i chew gum with my mouth open and a high maintainance woman spots me in those first few seconds of chewing, she labels me a "creep" (that last one i did not make up).
I've been thinking about how fast we label ourselves and other people. I've come to realise tho, that I am none of these things really. Iron maiden may be a band i like, but that doesn't mean I'm a metal freak. I wear a woolen sweater because it keeps me warm, not because i have a metrosexual fashion statement to make. I play guitar for the sheer enjoyment of it not because i want to make it big. And the only reason i chew that gum loud is because I haven't had a smoke all day and the gum i'm chewing just happens to be filled with nicotine, so that doesn't make em an inbred with no etiquette.
on sexuality. if i really wanted to, i could screw guys like no tomorrow. But i don't, Why? because i like women more. That doesn't make me hetero stricly. that just means at the end of the night, if there was a hot guy with a fem bottom trying to drag me to his place and also a super hot japanese chick lying about how old she is with fake id and the like, I'd choose the japanese girl fasho! Does that make me bi? no, eitherwise i'd take em both home. What does that make me then? not a label of bi, gay, or straight. That just makes me a person of choice. I choose what i like here and now until over time when my tastes change. because they do.
Believe me I don't have an identity crisis. they say by your twenties you've already figured out who you are. Who am I then? I have no idea, and frankly i don't care because who i am Is who i choose to be. I am therefore i am. What Am i? the only thing i am 75% sure about is that I am alive and i have a penis.
So don't put me in one of your stupid categories or I will suprise and even challenge your label everytime.
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