Anticipation: Where the real energy is at


Think about all the desires you have. or have had in life and living...

or even all the aversions you have or have had....

Do you recall what it is like leading up to attaing that which you have feelings of desrie or aversion for?

The building up of excitement or anxiety?

And once the moment arrives, immediately all that begins to fade, and whence the moment passes you find yourself drifting in a sea of indifference towards what it was you had been feeling excitement or anxiety over?

If you look, if you sit and be with those feelings, this process, and watch it, one sees that there seems to be something hidden behind all the descriptive words. Something hidden behind the labels pasted on the outside of the existant experience and all the material things that are in tow of that experience.


We say we want this or that, and do not want this or that. But, it would seem that the energy of the moment has little to do with the "this or that". The real energy is within oneself and the feelings one is generating. The material aspects seem to be only a means to generate this energy.

That energy is where our focus should be, yet our focus is tied up in the material objects and occurences. And, when that energy subsides, we simply shift our focus onto other objects and occurences.

We seem to be stuck in a blindness of sorts, chasing our own tails so to speak, as Solskye suggests here and there.

One must consider that if this be all true, then of what great importance are the objects? What is the true nature of their reality?

Remember, our physical bodies are also "objects", so what is their true nature?

It would seem that reality has more to do with the energy we generate inside than it does with the objects we fixate on to bring the rise of energy about.

There is something to be seen here......