This is a spinoff from Howie's Abstract thread in the Artist's corner. I'm not going to go into why it spun off from there.
I have spent months now trying to observe my inner dialog. Years, really, as several years ago I made a decision about the way I was going to choose to look at life. That decision was a simple choice to be happy.
Oh, the cacophony of objections that followed! My inner voice SCREAMED in protest. It loudly reminded me of a litany of problems and obstacles to happiness. After prolonged effort, it finally quieted down. An amazing thing happened then - I was happy. I remain happy.
So what remains of the inner dialog? A great deal, of course. It no longer has the luxury of complaining about much - at least not for very long, because I redirect it whenever that happens. The favorite topic for my ceaseless inner dialog has since become answering the question "why."
Why did I enjoy that movie or song? Why was that meal so good? Why did I feel such anxiety during that performance? Why do I struggle so to make changes in my life? Why do I collect everything under the sun? Why is my country seemingly coming apart at the seams? Why do my children likely face a more difficult life than I have lived? Why why why????
Why do I ask why? Why is it important to understand everything?
The answer to that question is that IT ISN'T. In fact, an analysis of some things destroys the magic. Why love? Why beauty? Why awe? Why life?
Is it possible to spend a period of time very deliberately not asking why?
That is my new year's resolution. I am trying to refuse my inner dialog the luxury of asking why and then proceeding into analysis.
I don't yet know if it is possible or healthy. I do recognize that why is sometimes the key to not repeating mistakes. I plan on addressing this simply by not repeating actions that result in undesirable consequences rather than indulging in an analysis.
That also means I'm not going to be giving much advice so long as I can maintain this effort. That will bring a sigh of relief from a lot of people. I give too much advice.
In the end, I want to experience life for what it is. I don't think we can do that while engaged in analytical reason... and I have isolated the linchpin of analytical reason in those areas I wish to banish it from as the desire to know why.
My response, for now, is NO WHY.