Cold Blooded,

It doesn't make any sense to not beleive in something just because it is too depressing. I for what wouldn't be able to do that. I would know that i was just fooling myself. If something makes sense, why not believe in it. To me it makes sense to say "i have found no meaning in the universe, and don't antisipate one."

Sure it sounds depressing when you describe it the way you do... being insignificant and nothing you do matters. (that kinda reminded me of the movie Groundhogs Day. It is a superb movie with this them of how to live a life when nothing you do matters)

But think of the consequences of a purposeless life like this... if there is no reason to do anything- one thing isn't inharently better than anything else. This gives one the incredible option to choose completely free of any rules. "You can do what ever the fuck you want" like existentialist wrote somewhere else.

You are incredibly free...

Can you see this? It is amazing how free we are to choose our lives.