Quote Originally Posted by Occipitalred View Post
(even though I don't perceive immortality as a boring hell).
I should clarify my own statements regarding being turned off of the idea of immortality; what I really mean is that if it were to be exactly the same as life as a human in general, I don't think I want to be immortal. I'm just fine with a limit to my life, although that isn't to say I necessarily want to die either. I am just comfortable with the idea of dying, more so than I am with living forever if it's basically a continuation of what's going on now (or my whole life for that matter). In a way it feels very right that everything has to come to an end (for me), because everything I've ever known always does. It's the nature of things, and I am a thing. That which makes "me" must fall apart just as the conditions for my creation came together. It's kinda cool in a way I guess. Maybe my personal way of handling the idea at this current point of time is just a "it has to be this way, so you might as well like it" kind of attitude. I don't see there being anything wrong with dying more than there is anything wrong with living, or any more than it is to feel emotions or anything else. Stuff just kinda is, so it all will do as it does.

An added benefit of seeing things this way is changing how you view death for others' as well. There is probably a person or two I'd be torn up over dying, but pretty much everybody and everything else living... when it dies, I don't feel anything at all. Death happens. I've had several family members die now, and have never felt a thing whenever it happened. Nobody in my immediate family has died, but for whatever reason I can't see crying over them either (again, the thought of them dying elicits no emotional response). The only person I'd feel something for, I would be crying out of self-pity for what I'll be forever missing. Not that grieving is a selfish thing to do per se, just that given how I react to death, it would definitely be out of selfishness in my case. In terms of them, I wouldn't feel sorry for the fact they can't exist anymore, because it would've inevitably happened anyway. Maybe that's a little harsh, but to quote Kurt Vonnegut, "so it goes".