Conniving, disgustingly deceptive dream. Means?
#1 The night before the dream I spent some time with a girl who I think I am leading along accidentally, its so fun when we are together and we always act as friends but shes more touchy. Occasionally she would call me brother and tell me to call her sister but I would ignore it, now I think its important that I don't. As I do not want anything from her but a friend. After the dream I though maybe I am leading the poor girl on, and she hates the fact I seem so close, yet am so distant and uninterested. (smokes)
#2 I have a girl I really care and feel for. But I really, really did some stupid things that drove her away from me. Really hurt her, maybe even for good. I always want to make it up to her and treat her right. This has led me to getting twisted guts and a lot of grief, but I think its worth it. I want to show her I changed. She is also a very reserved and shy girl by nature, but sometimes I interpret this as deception, which is true to an extent. (does not smoke)
I woke up early then fell asleep again for a few hours, started to dream. I was with the girl I really care for and we were at some family convention. Then she said she was going out to smoke, to which one of the family members said "shes going out", and I'm like sure I will come (she doesn't smoke). I lit up a cigarette but she just walked, eventually we got somewhere and she started to smoke, finished then went inside. It was some out-of-sight underground passage where there was a party with a bunch of people lined up. We got some papers to fill out and she just scrunched them up and went inside while I wrote some stuff down. Then her close-friend came and as I turned to say hi, I lost her. So me and her close-friend went to look for her, I said we should call her, she did - no response. We walked around through the whole party which lead to a church, long sidewalks, and some other venues. I even offered her close-friend a cigarette but she refused (she smokes). The whole time I could not even enjoy myself, I was just worried. I said, in a weird way, if shes with some guy I am going to snap. Then I saw her with 50 Cent and I pushed kind of both of them and said Hey, instantly there was 50 Cent and some Spanish guy, who appeared from the girl I care about, with a bunch of his friends who looked offended. Her close-friend took off somewhere, I apologized to the Spanish guy, and noticed a lot of other people staring at me cut-eye. Then he just said its fine and gave a cold shoulder.
I woke up, feeling like COMPLETE SHIT.
As I woke up my thinking instantly changed: Not mentioning anything to me (making it seem like we are just going for a walk) she went out just to go to a jam, I tagged along to a place I do not even belong in, I did not even know anyone there. She did not need to fill out any papers, just walked right in, she knew the place. Her close-friend came as a distraction, when the close-friend called her as she was lost, her close-friend seemed genuine. Then her close-friend hinted we should look for her, as a distraction so she can have fun without me interrupting. When I saw her but she disappeared, I assumed she is just in disguise but could not figure out how, as I woke up soon after. Also, the whole time I felt as just a mindless follower, she paid less attention to me then her close-friend did.
This is a first time dream. If I ever dream about the girl who's my all pretty much, its usually neutral, not happy and not disgusting.
Help interpreting? I would not post this if it did not bother me this much.
