T-Rex holding a knife attacking me and other dreams

[Tealgranate]

Hello there, I'm a 23 years old man, that has had very lively dreams since my grand pa (who was like my dad) died on Christmas 2010. Since then for example, I have the recurring dream that I see him again, hug him, and tell him how much I love him. However, usually I now tend to have more nightmares than good dreams. It is important to tell you, that I have been on dialysis since April 2011, I dont know if in any way this is linked to the death of my grand pa, as a general melancholy started on me after his death, and just some months later, a kidney failure with no apparent reason appeared :/ Kidney failure and dialysis for me were real nightmares. As at the moment the kidney problem appeared, I was far from home, studying and living a wonderful dream in Europe. I have always been a spiritual person, of morals, so I didnt understand how could that have happened to me, and what had I done to deserve such punishment? Usually nightmares involve topics such as the "antichrist" "murderers" and as of lately, reptiles. I had a dream 2 weeks ago with snakes that tried to devour me but couldnt, then one with crocodiles a week ago that tried to attack me, and now this one I'm going to tell you with a dinosaur. The dream starts in what I think it was Africa. Most exactly a Safari tour over there. In the Safari there was some people that I have met previously, in special some friends from Europe. I even joked inside the dream, as I saw what looked like a very old car with some very funny people. I remember that I said look at those "hillbilies" or, "look at those romanians" something like that inside the dream. Those Romanians are whatever they were became angry, so we tried to ignore them and continue our way. The scene went away and so did the safari tour in general. Then we arrived to a point where I REALIZED that this was a dream. I realized because some voice asked me if I wanted to be part of a Jurassic Park 4 experience, to which I said that yes. Immediately, the African landscape started turning far more creepier. We get off from the car, and started hiking a hill. There was somewhere a roar (bit distant) of a T-rex and so we thought that the mission was to hide from the monster. A friend had suggested climbing trees, but I told him that would be useless because additionally to the Dinosaur, some lion could catch us there. Finally we found a cave just before sunset where to hide. Once entering the cave I noticed many people that I have seen in my life. Not family, but in general friends that I have met everywhere. They were also hiding from the T-Rex which roar continued, each time a bit closer. Inside the cave everyone looked much smaller than outside of it, it was like when Alice shrunk in Lewis Carrol tale. Because of such a tiny size, the idea of almost everyone was to hide in case the beast came. I noticed that things could go horribly wrong, as we were in fact trapped; the main whole out of the cave would be covered by the dinosaur once he had arrived, also, there was a small fissure in the right side of the cave, the fissure was between some rocks. But it was covered by other things such as dust and ground... removing those would take time, and the Dinosaur wouldnt allow. On the left side of the cave, there was a gigantic wood door. It looked like those doors from the middle ages and such. The door was closed however, and no one was tall enough to reach it even less open it. All these people in the cave started singing stupid songs and mouth sounds without reason. I told them to shut up, because this would attract the T-Rex, it was too late though, as he arrived moments later. The T-rex had the ability to speak, he told us he knew we were there hiding and that no matter what, he would kill us one by one. He started stomping the ground, searching for all the tiny individuals. The Crowd had not developed any collective strategy on how to deal with this situation, instead pandemonium was unleashed and everyone was running to different points of the cave. Some were hidden inside furniture (a very big clock, a couch, a cupboard among others) Concerning me, I decided to run all the way up to the fissure of the cave. I tried removing the dust and ground for escaping, but the Dinosaur noticed me. He tried to catch me, but I was very small for him, plus some rocks were protecing me. "It doesnt matter, I will catch you anyway after I have dealt with all others" he said. He ran to the opposite side of the cave and started attacking others. I dont know how, but I realized that I could grow bigger, push the cupboard towards him, in the hope that the cupboard would fall to the ground while hurting the lizard. I didnt calculate well though, as the furniture didnt hit him, on the contrary, the dinosaur became very angry once noticing "Now that you're bigger, I can catch you" he came running towards me, I tried hiding behind another cupboard but it was worthless; I was too big and he could still see me and catch me. "Become smaller Matteo, Become smaller!" I said to myself believing my order would be followed (I knew this was a dream already, though I was feeling fear) "That's the problem with you all, you try to minizime everything" replied the T-Rex. Even though I had become small, this wasnt working anymore. I was trapped between the dino and the wall. In this moment I felt angry that no one was helping me as I had helped them when I sacrificed my own safety pushing that cupboard in hope he would stop attacking them. I thought that still, I could take revenge for that by telling the dinosaur where all of the others were hiding, he would be distracted, I would have the right amount of time to remove the dust and ground from the fissure and escape triumphantly. However, inside myself I knew that taking revenge was something bad and mean, that doing such harm to others would have been very evil. Instead, I decided to face my own destiny, delivering myself to the will of the beast. "Let's finish this once and for all" he said. He grabbed a knife and started stabbing me repeatedly. All stabs were in my left hand. I didnt see any blood, just a huge burning sensation! "Abort Mission" like in Inception I thought inside the dream. Only there was no French music, just began reciting the mantra that sometimes I repeat in these situations "om mani padme hum" While the T-Rex was on a frenzy way stabbing my left hand, I kept reciting and reciting until I finally woke up from the nightmare. I had the burning sensation in my hand some micro seconds after waking up, until it disappeared completely. And that's how the dream ended. What do you think that it could be? sexual? disease? what is? I live with my mother and 2 cats. Even though I was deeply in love in Europe and made out many times, I'm still a virgin. Currently, I have no partner and sometimes I feel a very strong sexual energy. Can this be related? Looking forward for replies.

[YourDreamingNow]

Then we arrived to a point where I REALIZED that this was a dream. Even though you realized you were dreaming, you followed the plot of the dream, this is just crazy. He grabbed a knife and started stabbing me repeatedly. All stabs were in my left hand. I didnt see any blood, just a huge burning sensation! Did it look like this :- You were Lucid, dude. You could do whatever you wanted, why did you let that happen. I mean you could have imagined y our self 10x bigger than it and you could have easily stomped it. I had the burning sensation in my hand some micro seconds after waking up, until it disappeared completely. I think that was because it took some time to shift senses from your dream body back to your physical body. Even though I was deeply in love in Europe and made out many times, I'm still a virgin. Currently, I have no partner and sometimes I feel a very strong sexual energy. Can this be related? Even I am Virgin (I'm 15). I don't think it is related to that unless you were humping that creature (mind my language). It was just a dream, enjoy it whether it be a nightmare or a dream. - (you gotta end up with a smile, you don't wanna get shot)