Back when I was a kid, sometimes my dreams would consist of extremely intense thinking. These dreams become extremely pseudo-paradoxical and hard on the mind. They usually consisted of logic and mathematics. I wouldn't even consider them dreams, just long, difficult, and confusing lines of thought. 95% of the time it was like... dreaming while awake. Like I'm awake but my mindset is shifted onto unusual patterns, like having REM while awake I guess...(kind of like, sleepwalking but not really...) I used to have them a lot during my childhood, as I did with lucid dreams and night-terrors. They went away for about 5 years, but now they're beginning to come back.

They're really hard to explain but I guess I'll try to make an example. This is going to sound really stupid, but one time when I was 10 I was awake but all night I was freaking out because I could not comprehend the golden ratio. I felt like that guy in the movie Pi, sitting there in the corner feeling my head pound over it. I had yet to see Pi but I do remember reading my brother's math book from college and being perplexed by his weird mathematics. Similar dreams would occur nowadays, with strange noises buzzing through my head, trying to understand the meaning of God, life, love etc., coupled with high fever. I would have clear memories of crying over cosines and tangents in the middle of the night, sweating and hyperventilating, with my parents as my witness. Yeah it sounds absolutely rediculous, but yes it happens. This also happens without "sleepwalking" or any logical thinking but it still wraps me with extreme pressure, with a pounding drone going through my head as I struggle to snap out of it, and when I do I'm off my bed gasping for air.

Is there any explanation or term that refers to these events, and if there is, could anyone give me some further reading as to why I have been getting these? Is it bad, good, a sign of insanity etc?

Thanks.