I just randomly noticed this thread on the forum and can't believe I never saw it before. I am yet another victim of these crazy ass dreams as a child, albeit with some slight variations.

The main one for me was set in infinite blank space. My awareness was attached to a small arrow shape, and even though there was blankness, there was an overwhelming sensation of moving impossibly fast, ripping through this blank canvas at the speed of light. The arrow represented a spaceship or 'something' that was slowly but inevitably going to collide with and destroy 'the universe' or perhaps just Earth... the feeling of knowing this was happening and being unable to stop it was just infinite doom and terror, it was incredibly frightening. I would have this infinite dream loop recurring semi-regularly for years, but can't remember having it past the age of 10 or so.

Another big one for me was seemingly being awake, and imagining an object in my room which was just impossible. I would have the image of a ring or a jewel in my mind, and in the small object was contained the entire weight and mass of the universe. This was less of a terrifying feeling but I suppose terrifyingly mysterious. It was a long time ago since I experienced this recurring experience but I seem to remember finding it fascinating and sort of playing with the concept in my mind, as opposed to the previously mentioned nightmare which was just sheer hell and doom lol.

I never met anyone who can relate to the first infinite doom/blank canvas until today, I'm seeing lots of similar experiences in this thread which I can't wait to dive into. The second dream though, the juxtaposition of something tiny holding the weight of the universe or vice versa, seems a lot more common. I remember a day back when I was in college when I went around asking loads of people about this, and a surprising amount of them were like OMG I HAD THAT TOO!! I remember doing a deep dive on it and I found a research paper explaining it as a symptom very minor type of stroke which is common in children. Wouldn't have a clue how to rediscover that article... I'm going to have a look around the internet tomorrow.

On a side note, it's definitely worth drawing a parallel between all this talk and that of a strong psychedelic/ego death experience. Coincidentally or not, the first time I took LSD (it was a very high dose and I was 16, stupid I know but this was 13 years ago lol) resulted in an experience of infinite time, infinite doom, absence of space/time/color which was very similar to the first dream I described. For me, most of these peculiar experiences have comprised of just white and black colours... not like black and white where there are shades etc, but pure whites and blacks. For the LSD experience, in the centre of this infinite void there were symbols that felt like archetypes at the time, but when I think back on them it just sounds like influence from conspiracy theories. It was like a middle perspective on this infinite white void, broken up by constantly changing triangles, eye shapes, nose-shapes, question marks, and the number 8. It was pure hell and I was genuinely terrified of question marks for months after that experience.

Despite everyone on the internet claiming they are myths, I 100% experienced INTENSE LSD flashbacks from this experience, albeit only induced by smoking weed. The flashbacks were even more terrifying than the original experience because it was objective and repeatable. However, these flashback experiences captured the vibe whilst putting me into a more IRL environment. For example, me and my friends would all be hanging out and smoking, laughing, and the laughter would erupt into such insanity that it was like I broke through into another dimension or something. I'd still be in the same room, but time no longer existed, and my sense of self and ego were completely replaced by infinite doom, and these terrifying sentences from my friends. They would say things like "Do you get it now... do you finally understand?" as if life was some enormous facade that I'd been believing up until this point. It's been years since I've truly felt the full force of this feeling, but can occasionally work myself into a less immersive version of it if I've got really high, watched a horror movie, or generally have heightened senses of anxiety/fear/mystery.

Man, deep shit. Sorry to get rambly toward the end there, but I've had a lot of spooky experiences like this and I find them totally fascinating. Can't wait to flix through this thread properly tomorrow.