About me: To begin with, I'm 25yrs/female and likes to daydream a lot. I don't like to be in a relationship (sometimes even platonic ones) and I have an issue in being close with someone. I think it's tiring and dangerous. Work is fine as it can be like that feeling you get when you're riding a train or walking a well passed street.

Dreams: I can't pinpoint a momentous time when my ghost dreams started, but it happened a couple of times for the past 6 to 7 years? It always started with the desperation of fleeing from the ghost. I've never seen it, I just always felt it like I know when it was there. Looking at me and following me all around. For some reason, I know when it's male or female and I kept getting lost trying to get away from it. Sometimes I don't run far enough to escape and sometimes even if I felt like I did, it always caught up. By that time, I wake up feeling terribly scared and confusingly sad. An overwhelming pair of emotions for me. It felt so heavy that I fall asleep right away. I don't obsess in thinking about it but it will crop up from time to time.

The plot has always been the same just different scenarios. Except last week when a face imprinted itself in my memory. Not sure how reliable my memories are but this dream started unlike my previous ghost dreams. It's setting was in a university? It did not look like the school I went to but I get the feeling that it is a university. I was late for something and I was really desperate to find a shortcut. One of my 'faceless friends' pointed to a red brick building and told me that if I go through there, I will be on time. I hesitated. I told her I don't wanna go because I know it is dark and long and damp and I was afraid that there might be a ghost. My friend then told me not to worry, she got permission from the head office to turn on the lights. I'm still hesistant, but I don't want to be late. Slowly, I entered the building and inside there was a single bulb lit. Underneathe it was a guard and he encouragingly smiled at me then flipped the main switch. The lights turned on, dim and some flickering. But it did it's job, it lit a long hallway with a series of doors on each side. The walls are dirty as well as the floor. Some doors were off their hinges. I don't remember the entirety of my time in the building but the next thing I knew, I exited a room and ended up in the final hallway. Looking to the right, I saw the exit, bright and hopeful. But then, from the brightness a figure emerged. I knew then that it was a ghost.

It looked exactly like me except her eyes are wide and red. Veins are very prominent on her face and I could see the blood flowing within. I was rooted on the spot, scared and unable to breathe. She paused for a moment as if assessing. Then suddenly she ran fast towards me in a crouch like manner like an animal chasing its prey. I felt this deep desperation to run but I can't move out of fear. Until she reached me and tackled me to the ground. She cupped my face, looked me straight into the eyes and screamed. The next thing I knew I was screaming back and I felt fear and sadness and frustration all mixed up. That's when I woke up, mid scream with tears in my eyes.

By now, the feeling has subsided. But I can't erased that image from my mind. Looking at this monstrous version of myself, I feel dirty in some way like there's something bad in me floating at the seams of my consciousness. The frequent ghost dreams I could take, but this one left me drained. I hope somebody knows what it means because I feel like I've missed out something big. Thanks in advance