I'm pretty use to my horrific dreams because of constant fighting with my father and getting sworn at non stop.
it annoyed me that these horrific dreams took away my lovey dovey dreams or my sexual ones GRR!
anyways.
I've sorted things out and my dads approved of my boyfriend after one year ( YAY!) and were alright now?
But i dont get it why do i still get these dreams???

three nights ago ( aprox)
my little brother who is like 10 was riding one of those rideable lawn mowers and he dragged my little cousin by the neck and continue to mow the lawn? and my cousin kept screaming and screaming and i was video recording the hole thing ... im such a lovely person. i wouldn't do that in real life i just had no control of my self.

And last night...
welll........
me and my boyfriend bought some fish and chips and we went to the park to find a place to sit and eat we kept trying to walk fast and go somewhere secretive to hide from some teen guy ( i didn't see him but just a gut feeling he was a teenager ) anyways we found a chair to sit at behind lots of trees and we started to eat.
he laid down and i put my jumper under his head so it would be comfortable i kept stroking his cheeks ( FACE CHEEKS. just to clear up any comments haha)

i kept feeding him the chips. it was a nice little scene and i was happy that i was just with him but i was hell paranoid about that guy who was looking for us.
we continued to eat and i look over and down the hill was a tennis court i saw my best friend with her mum and her cousin bailey and the daughter and mother were mucking around while her dad was just standing there watching them. i got jealous and i looked away.
the scene change and i assumed i was walking home by my self.
i was in the country side and there was barbed wire fences around me and i was thinking how am i going get through this i don't want to cut my self?
while thinking this i turn around and see annalise ( a different annalise then me haha)
she is a very quiet girl at school and stays to her self.

i saw this crowd of the bitchyy people from school and they were screaming at her and pushed her to the side into the barbed wire she screamed and cut her neck open blood was squirting EVERYWHERE.
they were laughing and having a jolly time ( not the girl whos neck got sliced)

she stood up and it was a different girl i know very similar quiet and keeps to her self the bitchy people grabbed the wire and wrapped it around her wrist.
the view went straight on close up... yay....
and they grabbed her arm so they could pull the wire and make sure its cutting her they pulled and pulled and she screamed and screamed...
and the leader started to yell SHE DESERVES IT !!
and blood poured out very fast everywhere.
she died.

?uhhhhhhh
am i just messed up in the head or something?
why do i keep getting these fricken dreams!!!!!!!!
i dont mind them overall cause they influence art works id just like to know why i get them i thought i knew but ive sorted stuff out with my father ( well for now anyways)
anything will help
thankss
epic