Wolfwood
Deuteragonist

Things like what? I've never been to a bar myself, at least not with the intention of actually... you know, going to a bar lol. But I have only been of age for a few months, and I'm not much of a drinker.

I don't watch porn either, I can't. >w< It makes me feel weird. Though I've mostly tried with hentai.... I suppose it might be different with real people. Most of my fantasies are really psychedelic. It's hard to explain exactly, but as long as there's lots of morphing/shapeshifting, fusing/mind control/possession, reality distortion, and infinite recursions, I'm usually happy. I've wanted to try that building up and extended orgasm stuff before, but I guess I'm just lazy. How much of an effect does it really have?

Awesome, I look forward to it. And yeah, I get the whole energy pattern thing, that's how I always identify people in my dreams.

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You're really just a gigantic kaleidoscope of dark neon fractals comprising an infinite space in which all of your deepest desires are twisted into reality just because they can be.... Nothing more. At least, not until you suddenly realize that you're still alive and standing in your kitchen. I could go deeper than that, but... I think I've taken up enough wall space for now. >w< Oh man... what a summer.

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This clearly adds to the sense of unreality, but you don't care... you gladly fall into them because you realize that literally nothing matters anymore. The sense of euphoria is so unbelievably overwhelming that you're not even sure if you're alive anymore. There are no more boundaries. Wanna warp to the other end of the house? Snap your fingers, and you're there. Wanna create an entire ritualistic dance routine by yourself? Just separate yourself into five or six different bodies and choreograph them all around the room... simple enough. Just don't fool yourself into thinking you're actually still even human for all of this... the raver girls morphing from your furniture and walking out of the TV will remind you if you forget, though.

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From this point on, no matter how hard you try, you can't even tell whether or not you're actually running around the house, or just staring at the wall. Both are happening simultaneously, and any type of remaining logic points you in both directions. In addition, this is all happening in third-person... but you're experiencing it in first-person, and that includes your perception of how you're experiencing it... which essentially means you live it in first-person but you remember living it in third-person, and you can picture both of them perfectly. And that applies to both moving and staring at the wall. >w< Furthermore, tracers have taken on a whole new dimension... more than just seeing lingering copies of movements that have already happen, you can now see into the future as well - all movements fall directly into their future tracers, no matter what you do.

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Gotcha, gotcha. I've been getting pretty random dreams too, and I haven't been writing them down. :T I need to get on that.... Oh, don't worry, I'll show up... right at the opportune moment.

Alright, well let's see here.... This one can be viewed as less weird in some ways because I was still... "me" rather than some kind of tunnel, but trust me... it was far more bizarre. Picture this: you place a sheet of 20 hits of acid directly on tongue, and once you move your head you can already feel it creeping up on you. Within a few minutes you're getting extremely anxious so you walk into the bathroom and look at yourself in the mirror only to have your entire memory - everything you've ever known - erased in a sweeping perceptual blip that is impossible to explain but also impossible to miss.

Awwww, so cute. >w< I think it's sweet. Like I said... never turn down an opportunity to find more beauty in the world.

Geez, an hour? I don't think I've ever gone that long before... well, unless I was just really fucked up and incapable of keeping focus. Though, most of my fantasies can get me there really fast because they're extremely stimulating to me.... When I actually think about people it takes longer, but it's also always way more intense, but harder to reach. Actually, the first time I ever had an orgasm while thinking about sex with someone was when I was 20, and it was sooo difficult.... I almost gave up several times or tried switching to my other fantasies, but stopped myself. Something I learned about myself: if there's no romance or foreplay, might as well not even try. >w< But when it actually worked... talk about euphoric.

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That's basically all that was there. And yes, I could see both of these things at the exact same thing, they were the same image just looked at differently.

2C-I + weed + ketamine + salvia 20X. Though honestly, that's not the weirdest. But 20 hits of acid gets hard to describe. But I could still try, if you want.

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Well, basically it was a grid line that twisted into a tunnel that I could only see down at one angle and wasn't perfectly straight, yet I could still (somehow) see the entire thing. On one "side" (like the cube) I was just this tunnel of squares that opened out all to the same image, a very realistic and 3D woman with blonde hair wearing a fancy green dress and making kind of a sexy smile, with her hair blowing. It just continued on to infinity with a blindingly bright white light at the end. On the other "side", I was sort of like a twisted mountain (like in The Nightmare Before Christmas), overlooking the scenery from bird's-eye view. Beyond the mountain I could see a plain down below, there was a farm on it with different animals grazing around.

So how's your day going?

Seems like a good plan. These week-long breaks do seem to be doing good.... I did it again after just a few days this morning and there wasn't much to speak of. Though, I also was really lazy about it and just tried to get straight to the good part, rather than really building myself up.

We'll see about that. Any sight of me yet? You better be ready to put up quite a thrashing.... I'm gonna be disappointed if reality even still functions correctly afterward.

That does sound fun. >w< The most odd I've had? Like... in fantasies, or actually experienced? I've become part of a net of... well, you know how you can see cubes in two different ways depending on how you focus your eyes, or like those spinning silhouettes that go in both directions?

I just find it annoying you're gaining more post counts that way.