StrayRhapsody
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Last night, I had a dream that started with my friend coming back from China (where she is in waking life and really will be returning to the states soon). Then it turned into she (or maybe some other exchange student) bringing back a group of friends from China or Korea or something for a sleepover or a party of sorts.
I think we may have gotten drunk or have smoked a little bit, because they began getting //very// friendly.
I didn't go below the waist per se, but one of the girls got on top of me and I put my hand up her dress. I felt her waist and her thighs and breasts. Her skin felt very, very warm and and smooth. Her dress was light-weight fabric with floral patterns on it.

This is unusual for me, because I normally do not have sexual dreams about women. In waking life, I have slowly come to realize that I am bisexual. I am lucky enough to have friends that accept that, so it's something that I talk about on a fairly regular basis- no suppressed feelings or anything, though I DO have to suppress talking about it around my parents (very Conservative Christians).
I am longing for a relationship with my best friend (a male), but we have tried before and he doesn't want to have that kind of heart-ache again (he had to deal with my depression and anxiety issues and all of the confusion that came with that). I think I am realizing that I don't really have hope right now of getting back together with him, and I think what I'd really like to try next is a girlfriend.
I've never officially had one, and I feel like it would be beneficial to try at this time in my life. I think that maybe that's where this dream came from, but I'm not sure.

I didn't have any lucid dreams last night. But I did do something in my dream that I wanted to do while lucid dreaming. I had a flying dream, when flying was what I was all that I was focusing on before going to sleep.

A few nights before, I had my first realization that I was dreaming, but I woke up right afterward. I had been thinking about my relationship with someone in the same way that I did while awake, but I noticed how weird the setting was (I was in a Colosseum-style stadium filled with people in strange costumes). That realization that I was dreaming is what got me back into researching lucid dreaming and creating this account.

I have been drinking a lot, a LOT of green tea in order to stay healthy and awake for finals and the preparation that comes along with them. I heard that this can help induce lucid dreaming.

Getting back to the flying: It was exciting having a flying dream after thinking so much about being able to have a lucid, flying dream and imagining exactly what it would be like (I would, like normal flying dreams, kind of push myself into flying, like I am swimming to the surface of a pool).
Unfortunately, I also had a lot of dreams last night about a girl named Chelsea, a girl with whom I do not have a very good relationship.
She tried to steal the guy I was dating at the time, and I would constantly compare myself, believing that she really //was// the right girl for him.

But that's all over now, and it's not pleasant having dreams about her, again.
The dreams were filled with tension. We were both trying to make amends or something, but I could tell that she really didn't want to.
I kept telling myself, when I'd wake up from each dream, that the next time I'd dream, I'd realize I was dreaming. But it didn't work like that.

I hope to focus on wanting to fly and continuing to imagine what it will be like. I'll continue drinking green tea.
We'll see what happens.