samantha
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I often dream about work. The work dream falls into one of two categories; being late/missing work or doing work poorly.

My job involves putting patients to sleep, haha. Seriously, I am an anesthetist.

In my work dreams I either fail to show up for an operation or my patient awakens from anesthesia during surgery. The most traumatic is the dream where the patient awakens. When this happens the patient generally is running around the room and the entire operating room staff is staring at me like Im a horrible person.

In last night's dream, the surgeon asked how the patient was doing. I responded that the patient was fine while I was panicking to give the patient more drugs. The patient kept moving and wasn't staying asleep despite my efforts. Finally, the patient pulled the tube from his mouth (the one that entered his trachea and supported his breathing) and was talking to me. I was trying to talk louder than the patient so that nobody would hear while I frantically tried to resedate him.

In the end, I had to admit the patient was awake. When this happened I was hoping to be strong and deal with whatever punishment I had coming to me. Before anything else happened, I awoke.

For years I have had a recurring dream about my grandmothers home. In my dream, it is haunted.

My grandmother has been dead for over a decade. Her home was a favorite place of mine, as a child. I never felt uneasy about the home, in general, but I do remember a wierd sense of being uncomfortable in the attic. I recall thinking the attic, in its spider web and dusty state, might be nicer if it were clean with fresh carpet and drywall. There was always this question, in my young mind, as to whether the attic could shed its eery feeling.

(As I grew older, I recognized that queesy feeling in my stomach as more of a signal that something wasnt right. And, I dont stay in areas where this feeling predominates. )

The stairs to the 'eerie' attic were in the room where my uncle stayed until he married and moved out. Several years after I had these experiences and when our family no longer owned the home, my uncle confided in a series of his experiences.

As a teenager, my uncle told me he experienced (what I would classify as) a mild form of possession/obsession with a spirit. It started with him making a connection during a ouije board session. He asked me not to 'play' with ouije boards. He stated that he attempted to throw the board away, in attempts to end the relationship. First he threw it in the trash in the kitchen. A few days later, it appearred in his closet. Then, he took it to the trash behind the garage. Again, it reappearred in his closet. Finally, he threw it in the furnace and the entire home shook and he heard demonic screams. That was four decades ago.

I am sensitive to my surroundings and I often have psychic dreams. I have had dreams of demons trying to lure me, in one way or another. About 5 yrs ago I started dreaming about my grandmothers home. In my dream I am drawn into the 3rd floor attic or the closet of the 1st floor bedroom. Each lead to a demon.

In my dreams I fight to rid the house of the demon and I am always unsuccessful. Last night I taunted the demon, daring it to appear. It did and I could feel its strength, which scared me.

I dont understand why I keep having this dream. And, I dont know what it means. I want to go back to the house and face my dream head-on but, I dont know the current owners and live in another state. Any suggestions?