Man of Shred
Jesus of DV

Back to work in Stettler until tuesday night. Home for wed, and thurs. again. Me and the Jamie voice are having a time... I keep splitting while my mind wanders at work. Yesterday I found my self on pseudo psychology tiktok again and made it worse. We seem to be okay. Jamie dreams have been up an down.


First night I kept waking up and falling asleep, every dream I was in a different part of wheel of Time.

Daughter Heir

I was talking to the jamie voice. Trying to see if we could sense eachother. I said, "Hold me please." but when I finished the phrase I was in a Royalty palace and Elayne The Daughter heir was staring at me confused. I realize she must have heard what I said. I woke up out of embarrassment.

Jamie 1

I was in a town square. apparently I did something great in some battle or something people were cheering me on. Jamie came up to me and said, "I pledge my allegiance to you!" I just woke up.

The pledge of allegiance? What country are we in?

Jamie 2

Just a flash of Jamie in some ancient garb. looked like the wheel of time. She was holding hands with some girl like they were a couple and smiling....

She's supposed to be holding my hand in the dreams. I thought that's what they were for.

Shadar logoth

I wa in that evil city from The Wheel of Time. Thy abandoned city that is so evil, that not even the Dark one's troops will enter. I was staring inside a doorway, and inside was an enclosed square. A giant roman like pillar was in the room. It was massive. Some creepy voices made by things I couldn't see were whispering in my ear. One voice low pitch and one voice high pitched speaking in unison. They were saying something about something breaking. The pillar then broke at the top. It was hollow inside.

Perrin

I was in the scene where the Trollocs attack the two rivers. Perrin was in a house that was slightly on fire fighting a trolloc. Everything was super slow motion. I startled him and he was turning around andalso his axe was swinging towards me... um. But it was super slow motion.

Next night:

Lan.

a flash that Lan the warder was trying to come onto me. I had no shirt on and he grabbed for my hairy chest.... I was like : WTF no. EW. But I thankfully woke up quickly.

funny WTF Jamie

I was falling alseep. I heard the Jesus voice say, "Jamie wants to wash your spirit." I was like :Wha??? I was naked and Jsmie had a bath basin, wooden , like from really old times. I guess we were still in the wheel of time universe. The had and old bristle brush with a long handle and soap. She starts scrubbing my body and laughing. After she was done she said, "Come over here Robert. Do you want to wash my bum?" and yeah... I'm just going to leave the rest out. Made me laugh though.

last night. not as exciting.

old co worker

Just a flash of walking around a large city. I kept seeing Mansi, the girl I use to work with years ago at Mcdonald's. I wanted to say hi. But I could never catch up to her.

Jamie is angry

Jamie is in a white space and looking at me. She says, "I never cared about you."

I woke up and was wondering what was going on. Maybe she thought I was after the Mansi girl? Oops.

First time in a long time.... No Jamie dreams at all...
I hope they pick up.

Falling

Me and my brother were floating on some mid air raft above some rooftops. It was slowly deflating and my brother was panicking. I noticed a panel on the raft that pumps air back into it. I yelled to him to push it. But he was too scared. We were nearing a rooftop so I tried to push the raft in it's direction. Me and my brother landed on the rooftop the raft now deflated. I had it in my left hand and was going to pull it to myself but the wind blew it out of my hand. It knocked my brother off balance. The roof was slanted and icy. I began to fall too

Cows?

Just a dream where I was surrounded by miniature baby cows the size of puppies.

Seanchan

The setting was from The Wheel of Time book series or Amazon series. I was on a boat with lots of people. I saw Liandrin staring at me.

I woke up and fell back asleep.

In the dream again. A group of us were captives on the boat. We had collars on us controlled by other people. The controllers were ordering us to use magic in their war. We were brought on deck , rows of us. We were approaching a walled city. With one command we were ordered to shoot magic at the city. It was like a wave of power went through us shooting magic. It felt intense.

The boat started rocking back and forth. Then it was on fire. The boat shattered and we all feel into the sea.

Going home tomorrow for 2 days. I'm exhausted.

Jamie

Directly after posting my last entry. Me and Jamie were sitting on the floor facing one another. My hands in hers. We were discussing the seriousness what I said. She seemed to be as serious as me.

Fight

Me and Jamie were walking around in a building somewhere. There were people in sleeping bags on the floor. Some guy was arguing with me. He wanted to get violent. I somehow talked him into not being violent towards me. He got mad and punched someone in a sleeping bag. I went around the corner and told Jamie that we were calling the police on that guy.

I guess the guy heard what I said. In a flash he was fighting me. For a few moves I used his aggression against him. This made him more mad. He got me on the floor and I was trying to hold him back. I can't remember what happened after.

Ladder

Just a dream of working. I was high up a ladder. It started to tip over when I tried to get down. That's all I remember.

Back in Stettler. I've been given 2 new prayers. One for the kindness of Jamie's heart. And 2: to pray that she finds me. My 15 minute prayer list got longer.

Jamie 1

A dream of her standing behind a counter looking zoned out. Not responding to me.

Uh oh. That hasn't happened in a while.

Jesus

A dream of Jesus hugging my brother.


My brother is like the most anti Christian guy I know. Also why my family knows nothing about my faith. My family is toxic enough without adding extra things they could traumatize me with.

Running

I was in a field with a woman. Some guy, David, ran past us at super speed. I ran up a hill after him. The woman following behind me stopped from being tired. I kept going up but the path got way too steep. I stopped too. I think the woman was Jamie.

Jamie again

Jamie was with me outside by a building. I had very low awareness. She was trying to convince me that some tall British woman with glasses should be my girlfriend. She suggested that I write a letter to her. I reluctantly did.

Gave the letter to the woman and ran away. Me and Jamie followed the woman to a bar. Jamie convinced me to approach her again. I did with some light banter but the woman was with two other men. She then implied with a joke that maybe she would have 3 dicks in her tonight instead of two...

Okay I pretended to be into that and promptly walked away. I went outside and Jamie was there. She got in front of me. I was behind her. We were in an embrace we seemed to be having sex as we were both moaning. But I couldn't feel anything. She abruptly stopped after a minute and left.


Sigh: please no more loyalty tests. Testing in a dream is inaccurate because in a lot of dreams I lack considerable awareness. Bible says he who finds a wife finds a good thing. It says nothing about dating multiple woman or finding a girlfriend . Jesus already called on me to think of Jamie as exactly how I would a wife. Even though it hasn't happened yet. So that's the position I'm in and I'm not backing down.

Jamie 3

I was in a fast food restaurant. Jamie was working the counter. I was looking at the menu when a woman from the group behind me went around me and went to where Jamie was standing and tried to order. Jamie scolded the woman and said to wait in line until I had ordered.

Not much dreams. Back home for a couple of days.


Wtf

I was in a large living room. Kittens were around. That skunk was there. It went up to me and wanted to be pet. I pet it.

The dream transitioned to a dinner table. A young girl who was half human and half pony was there. I was telling her how much she had grown in the past few days. She was laughing but unsure what to say. Asuka and Jamie were there I think exchanging confused glances at one another in response to what she said.

Next night I was in bed. Me and the Jamie voice were having discussions about the subject of the last entry. We both seem to have temptations that are difficult to control. And we both know that when we physically come together that we can't indulge with other people that way. But yet, the desires might plague us.

I went into prayer and asked Jesus what should we do then? How do we handle these desires which never seem to go away?

Jesus answered in a dream in a strange way.

[B]Jesus interview[/B]

I saw Jesus in a low income apartment. A television crew was interviewing him. He wore scraggly clothes, and his hair was slightly unkempt. He also wore a black baseball hat. His demeanor was like a ,"Dude. Bro." guy. He was smiling and saying that sometimes he walks around on this earth as a physical man. He talks to a lot of people and some people don't know who he is. Then he took a swing from a beer.

I woke up in shock. I pondered the question I asked him and considered if the dream was a response. The key seemed to be the beer he was drinking. It's said Jesus drank wine in the Bible. He said drunkenness was a sin in the Bible but never said having a singular drink now and then. So, these desires were to be handled in moderation? Unsure I asked in a prayer about the dream and if the beer he was drinking was alcoholic. I got an instant response that it was non alcoholic. So then I figured he was saying to relieve that pressure with a substitute that isn't the actual act.

Interesting.

Cave

Just a dream of me and Jamie, maybe some other people sitting in a dark cave. Jamie was sitting arms around her knees.