LostOnTrains
Insomniac

Ive been taking Silene Capensis for 3 days now. One of the things that I have read about it is that you should do whilst taking it is try to think of a question where you would like guidance in your life, and the answer will come to you in a dream.
Me being 27 and bumming round in jobs that I hate, my question to the dream-spirits has been "What should I do with my life?"...because i still have no idea!

Well, I think my dream recall is definitely improving. I seemed to have lots of dreams last night that were vivid. Was this due to the silene capensis? I am not sure. I wish I had wrote them down during the night, but they were vivid enough for me to think "I will definately remember this!" Except by now, I can only remember snippets:-

Dream 1:
I am a rich and successful man. I am wearing a suit and I can buy pretty much anything I want in life. How got to be rich... either I can't remember or it was not explained.

Dream 2:
On a submarine...? Or inside some kind of metal tank with other people. No idea what this was.... Just the tiniest fragment, but I know it was a long dream. I shoudl have wrote it down!

Dream 3:
I am playing Fallout 3 whilst my girlfriend watches. She is unimpressed with the storyline. I describe to her how I love the way the civilisation is existing right on the cusp of life and death.

I am sure I had more dreams too, but i cannot recall them right now.

For my tea last night I ate LOADS of chinese food. Much more than usual... I was feeling hungry
I felt fine after but all that greasy food must have had a bad reaction....

Anyway, I went to bed as usual that night and awoke midway through the night with the most terrible stomach ache, I thought I was going to be sick. I sat up in bed and my girlfriend said something to me (I asked her about it today and she said I just mumbled some incoherent reply)...
I was definately awake, but at the same time when I closed my eyes I saw a bizarre vision.

In my vision I was sitting encased in the centre of a mountain. My aching belly all bloated up like I was pregnant. The pain would shoot out of my belly and crack the rock around me. The cracks opened up into wide burrows through the mountain (I saw it as a cross-section from the side. Imagine a mountain shape with wide cracks opening up in a semicircle from my belly, like a cartoon sun with rays radiating outwards).

One the surface of the mountain, where the cracks emerged I saw chinese dragons in a figure 8 shape. Upon looking at the dragons I was able to feel the rise and fall of many ancient civilisations.

The whole vision was very engrossing. I was aware that I was awake, and that it was just a dream/vision, but it was as if I was right there when I closed my eyes. Like existing in 2 places at once.

After a while the vision faded and I went back to sleep.

Also, this was my first day trying Silene Capensis. I wasnt expecting any results from it this early so I am not sure what this was. Most likely it was something similar to a fever-dream brought on by my bad stomach and too much greasy food... but very strange!

Just a fragment from last night.

A dream character asking me over and over "Are you dead?"
Each time I answered "No, I am not dead" he would ask the same question. I woke up with the question ringing in my ears.

Lots of insomnia and broken sleep recently, so most of my dreams are fragmented and unformed.
One image that sticks out was from a couple of nights ago. WhenI woke up I drew the image because it seemed significant somehow.

It was of 4 hands gripping each others arm in a square formation, like in the picture. The hands were gripping nearer the elbow, so the square was wider, but this is the closest image I could find.
Perhaps it has some kind of meaning?