Bink830
Lurker

Date of Birth

August 30, 1991 (33)

About Bink830

LD Count:

2

Biography:

I was raised as a cradle Catholic. Throughout grade school and high school (I went to Catholic private school for both) I always felt that there were other presences nearby that were not of our world, but was constantly told there was no such thing as ghosts. Also, I was constantly aware of the hate and bigotry rampant there even though I was one of them that participated like I was bred to. As a child I had a very active imagination when I was awake seeing things such as animals and spirits in my house but when they scared me, my mom always assured me they were just my imagination. The most significant being a wolf in my parents room that instilled a great fear in me and caused me to have a phobia of my parents room for years. I also had 2 dreams where I spontaneously realized I was dreaming and willed myself to be able to fly and control the elements. My very first one happened when I was bitten by a dinosaur in my dream at my elementary school and I realized that it didn't hurt. I then concluded I was dreaming and decided I wanted to have the powers of Vageta in Dragonball Z. That was the most fun dream I've ever had. Being able to fly at incredible speeds and shoot energy from my hands was pure living in my opinion. When I got to college my faith in the unknown resurfaced after a period of being agnostic. Under the influence of hallucinogens, I became aware that there must be a Prime Mover for the world to function as perfect as it does, and the second I admitted that I felt happiness, only clarifying my belief to myself. It led to me writing my final paper freshman year about the power of the imagination, why that makes humans special (I have since changed on that opinion in watching my dog dream,) and the potential power of our brain that we leave quite unused. Since those experiences I started to broaden my little research on Out of Body experiences and if I could have more Lucid Dreams. That research led me here and I plan to reactivate that imaginative part of me to see where it takes me. I am slightly bipolar (I usually only have the manic side of it, depression hasn't been an issue for me for years since I decided I didn't want to be depressed any more. It sounds weird but I willed myself out of it.) I do enjoy the manic side of myself though because I have higher creativity during those times and it becomes easier to go outside my usual introverted, comfort zone. The downsides are the paranoia and illusions of grandeur that accompany my overactive mind.

I don't quite know what my religion is now because though I don't approve of the Christian Father God Yahweh (What loving God would take a human sacrifice, encourage racism, demand fear, and be subject to double standards*) If this truly is the true creator God, he is an asshole and I want nothing to do with Him. It is our choice as humans what we want to believe in, that is the purpose of free will and the knowledge of good and evil. I am definitely an advocate for good to all and equality of all people. I am disgusted when I eat fast food and throw any away knowing that someone starves somewhere and I don't have the resources to help them. Black, White, Yellow, or Red, Christian, Muslim, Jew, Hindu, or Wicca, I don't care, I love all the same. I believe in a God that echo's my sentiments through Actions not Words. This is why I do believe that Jesus Christ taught and was perfection on the basis of Morality. I also believe that the reason he taught against promiscuity and the like is because it was dangerous during those times (with no condoms or regular baths) to engage in such activities. I believe that he was a great man who was fully in tune with his spiritual self and was an example for other people to be the same. That is why I believe that we all have a little Jesus in us, because through true love and understanding we are all capable of being messengers of peace and love. But I think that Christianity today has become corrupted by bad leaders and teachings through the centuries (Crusades, Great Schism, elitism, racism, and its stance against Cannabis, a plant that fueled the world for thousands of years.) Also, I don't understand how Christianity condemns dreamers, though has prophets who gained significant knowledge, and messages through dreams, theres another double standard :|. I guess I'm kind of Gnostic in believing that Yahweh is the Demiurge, but I'm not sure about Sophia yet. These are questions I hope to be answered in my OBE's and LD's. I look forward to sharing my experiences and reading all of yours.

Add me if you want to talk more or have questions about things I said. There was more to write but I got weary of typing. I'm also always up for debate :)

*= It's evil for any nation to rise against Israel, but Israel marched all over the land conquering different nations and either slaughtering it's inhabitants or circumcising all of them.


Further note, these writings reflect my beliefs as of this moment on 9/28/10. Everyone is always changing and growing spiritually and since I have not yet walked the spiritual plane since maturity, nor am I at the end of my maturity road, some of these beliefs are subject to radical change.. And also if you really read this far into my Bio, I appreciate it VERY much and I hope that you will add me and contribute to my growing through constructive criticism and debate. Have a blessed day!

Location:

Nashville, Tennessee, United States

Interests:

Football, music, video games, philosophy, reading, and chilling with friends.

Occupation:

Subway Sandwich Artist & Toys R' Us Overnight Stocker

Gender:

Male

How you found us:

Google searching about lucid dreams and OBE's.