For the past week, I have been having the same dream over and over and over again. It is probably the most horrifying dream I've ever had. Mind you, some time ago, I had severe insomnia, which forced me to start keeping a dream journal. I've been keeping one ever since, and that was 3 years ago. An avid and often lucid dreamer, I've still not yet learned to control my dreams, but that's decides the point. I was wondering if anyone could even slightly decipher this for me, because it is the most horrifying thing in the world to me.
I start off walking through a dimly lit room, and because I'm nightblind in real life, I am night blind in my dream, as well.Hardly able to see, I bump into what I think are the walls, and this is when everything becomes conscious. It's then as though I'm watching myself traverse through the building from a pier somewhere above. I then try to advance my position, and this is where I start to lose my balance. The ground beneath me gives out, and I fall a short distance, clenching my eyes until I hit the ground. When I hit the ground is when I open my eyes. Now that I can see, I'm in some large machine, and as I try to stand up, it's as though I'm drunk. The place I'm is this old abandoned factory I used to urban explore before it got renovated. The walls then move in on me and my boyfriend crawls out of a pit in the ground, and starts walking on all fours, estranged and foaming at the mouth. I look to check the time, as I often do when I'm consciously dreaming: 2:13, I turn my head and look again: 4:44. After this, I continue walking until I reach a door, upon opening it, the dead corpses of all of my closest relatives pile on top of me.As soon as I go to reach, I am gripped by one of their arms, and swallowed within the mass of them, as this happens, I wind up back in my bed, but my room is now filled with blood-tinged water and the scent of gasoline and iron. I then proceed to watch myself through a window outside my room struggle to move, as I am temporarily paralyzed, and so I drown. As soon as the water reaches the level of the window that I'm at, and my body floats up to its level, I wake up.

Why is this happening? Because it's scary as HELL.