I finally had a real lucid dream - well two, actually - and it was amazing
So last night I was exhausted - I'd only had about four hours sleep the previous night, and cos I really wanted to take a shower, wash my hair ect, by the time I finally got to bed it was 3:30 am. I laid there, reminded myself I wanted to lucid dream, did my white light affirmations (inspired by Clairity and modified slightly, and I've always wanted to say thanks for that, it does make me feel protected). Anyway, laid there for a min and tried to count 1 I'm dreaming 2 I'm dreaming, thought I felt some vibrations but wasn't sure if it was maybe just the cat scratching himself.
From then on, this is what I remember. Very brief non-lucid about trying to go to a bathroom and pee with a dog snarling at me. Back in bed, feeling like I just had the shift, just feeling...strange. Reach up and do a nose RC. I CAN BREATHE! I couldn't believe it. I feel sort of trapped in the bed, it's odd, like I want to get up but it's not that easy, so I start rolling from side to side, back and forth, til I roll out of bed and hit the floor. Start laughing my arse off, my bf sits up with a funny look on his face and asks wtf I'm doing, I can't stop laughing. I get a strange feeling, do a nose RC - I can STILL breathe :D It was an FA. Ok, now what, I think. I don't see anything at this point btw, my eyes see only blackness, but when I reach up and pinch my nose, I can breathe. I wear a sleep mask at night, btw. I try to open my dream eyes but it's hard, feels hard to open them and as I try to I see a little light at the bottom and I'm afraid I'm about to really open my eyes and wake up, so I stop trying.
I decide because I'm seeing blackness I should try flying through space. I think to myself that I will see Saturn up ahead, and try to imagine/will myself to be flying through the universe. I feel a little like I'm moving through blackness, but no planets, no nothing :/ I then tell myself "Saturn is below me", and try to look down and sort of fly downwards. I see a vague glow that may be Saturn, but I can't get the planet in my field of vision. Dammit. I'm not sure what happens next, I think I have another FA, do the nose RC, find I'm still dreaming, and have a hard time believing it - I keep thinking I just must not be pinching my nose hard enough, and that's why I can breathe. It's amazing the rationalizations your mind comes up with. I pinch it HARD, as best I can, can STILL breathe, and finally believe it again.
Next thing I remember, I've finally got imagery! It just sort of came out of nowhere. I am in a modern, busy hospital. I just sort of materialize in the hall of ICU, and as I start walking a harried looking black female doctor walks by me, I bump into her and she gives me an irritated look, lol. It felt so real. I walk a few steps til I get to an exam room and there is an older female doctor with salt and pepper hair... the dream is fuzzy, so I calmly say in a confident voice "increase clarity" or "more clarity", something like that, and it works :D Things just seem to sharpen like the focus was adjusted on a camera, and the dream feels much more solid. Once it's solid, for no reason I go up to the doctor and hug her. She gives me an amused look and walks away. I'm curious about touch, and there is an empty gurney next to me, so I run my hand along the mattress, feeling a crisp white sheet, and it feels utterly real.
I go into another room and there is someone on a bed with a bloody bandage. I am curious, and walk up to them, but get nervous suddenly, not wanting to see what's wrong with them, and walk out. In the next room there's a kid of about 12 who's broken something skateboarding... I walk by him, find myself in a room with a bunch of girls who are listening to the band Nirvana. At this point the dream starts to disappear, I remember I should try to spin but in the next second I wake up....
Absolutely elated :D I know it may not be much in comparison to a lot of ppls lucids, but I really, really did it this time, not once but twice :) I remembered to do reality checks, they worked, I got my clarity to increase, I rolled out from my body - and I remained in the dream for a bit and kept my lucidity. I am really, really happy :)
I have to be honest and say I'd had doubts, of course...that little gnawing fear - will I ever be able to do this? Maybe I'm just not one of the ppl who can do it... but I found out last night that I am. Anyway, it's almost 2 am and i'm exhausted, so you can guess what I'm going to do - I'm going to go to sleep and see if I can WILD again. Thanks for reading :)
