1st lucid since I was a child.
I've been reading this site and a some others for about 2 months now. I'm holding a journal since 2 months. I've been doing reality checks since 2 months. I started to get annoyed since 2 days. and then it happened...
Yesterday I only did 3 reality checks during the day, and I tried a WILD in the morning and in the evening (which hasn't succeeded yet). The reality check consists since a week and a half of looking at my hands very thouroughly checking if everything is normal whilst repeating am I dreaming in my head. I stopped with checking if equipment worked etc. since I didn't encounter thoose in my dreams. I was pretty frustrated that my last wild attempt was not succesfull. After I went to watch a film and drink a couple of beers I got home and entered the room which I like to refer to as my "slaapkamer" which is logical because this is the dutch word for bedroom. It wasn't late (around one-ish).
Since this week I stopped worrying about waking up in the night. I know wake up now and then so I can write something or not if i don't feel like writing. I woke up around 2:30 am and recalled a dream with a nuclear powerplant that exploded because a plane crashed into it. Saddly enough it caused a chain reaction which caused the world to end. I dreamed also something about an alien and several things about a lift. I senced that If I would have to write everything down I wouldn't get much sleep because it was a lot.
Then it happened I dreamed several strange dreams about a bus driving me to different places and me myself driving with a car. I encountered many different unkown people on many different locations. In this rather strange dream I "fell into sleep" several times. Every time I woke up I was somewhere different and I felt ashamed that I had slept. But I kept doing it... so suddenly I was in a massage salon with woman I know. It was a sexclub style of massage salon, since I never went to one in "real life" it look pretty much like the lockerrooms of a swimmingpool. In my dreams I was convinced it was a massage salon though. Then it happened again I closed my eyes and as in a wild looked at my eyelids suddenly I was in another room of the massagesalon with a beautiful lady in front of me then it stroke to me I AM DREAMING! I can keep my cool when needed so I realised not to get to excited and when I wanted to start saying "You're al just a dream!" I realized I could as well have sex with her. This got me a bit to exited and I got back to my regular dream... i tried it several times again each time I ended up the same way.
Then there was a blank. I know that a lot happened but I can't recollect. And then the most beautifull thing happened. I awoke in my bed and realized i'm dreaming. I thought well since I'm dreaming I might attempt to leave my body. I did something and suddenly I was floating above my bed. I tried to float trough the door but felt a door as it feels in the real world. Then I tried the window I felt a window. I thought, "hey this is a dream, if i want to go through it I just do it and it happened, I floated through the window. The problem was my awareness, perception, if i stopped enjoying what I was doing and started thinking everything turned black in the way as when you close your eyes. I could recover several times but when I was outside my window I was pulled against the wall because suddenly I started worrying about not being able to return to my body. I felt my body pulling me in suddenly everything got black and I awoke (for real) in bed.
For me it works to try to wake up or fall asleep in a dream to get lucid. The more I get aware and take the time to enjoy what I'm doing in real life and stop wandering the further I can go in thoose lucid dreams. I'm curious what tonight will bring.
edit: Also when I dream time stops existing, I don't have the feeling of time anymore everything that happens happens, it doesn't take that long or this long. I loose the feeling of something that doesn't exist anyway.
yours,
Il dottore.
