I am new here and this is my 2nd post so hello everyone ! Let me tell you about my excitingly extremely frustrating experience.

I drove home from my grandparents house this morning and didn't get much sleep last night, so i figured when I got home that it would be a good time to attempt another WILD! I have not yet had a lucid dream and have been avidly studying everything from lucid dreaming to OBE's in all forms non stop this Thanksgiving break because it is so interesting to me and I am so eager to learn!

And a side note - since I haven't gone into lucidity yet I haven't separated from my physical body so I still didn't know what that felt like and I still might not. I am pretty sure that I fell asleep in the process of WILDing during my nap. I had a dream during my nap - or it was my WILD ( I honestly dont know.. I didnt have any HI so it was most a dream i guess) but it started and I had this feeling that I could separate from my sleeping body. It was dark and I did so, it felt just like I thought it would feel, like i rolled over out of my body. I sprang up and jumped out of bed in excitement after feeling this separation, and i guess I thought that jumping out of bed would be a good reality check ( I figured I would fly or float or something.. who knows!) and when I landed on the ground normally I figured that it wasn't a dream and went back to bed. Also my sisters boyfriend who lives in my room with me at the moment was at work this whole time i was napping. But in the dream he was sitting in the computer chair on his computer right next to my bed. I found it strange that He didn't say something about me suddenly flinging out of bed and then getting back in... It is like I was conscious enough to think I was separating from my body but not conscious enough after that to do any actual reality checks. And

When i woke up I didn't remember anything but thought hard to remember if i had a dream or not. Then I remembered all of this that had happened!! I quickly took note of everything that happened and this was what I wrote:

"I felt my body separating and jumped out of bed to see if i could fly. I got back in bed realizing i wasn't dreaming and Matt was on his computer. But Matt is at work so it was a dream!"

I have a huge sliding mirror closet in my room and a clock next to my bed. I do reality checks a lot but I don't understand why I didnt in my dream! I mean i jumped out of bed as a reality check and after that failed (I know really can't expect to fly out of bed haha, but it sounded so good at the time!) I didn't even attempt to look at my hands? The huge mirror in my room? Or the clock right behind me? GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH (((.

And now I am filled with anger that I just decided to go back to bed but also so much excitement because I was so close! Why do I do this to myself. Now I know how real a false awakening can be... but daaaaaamn this is twisting my mind writing and thinking about this. This stuff man, this stuff.