Woke about 7:30AM from a dream about I subject that I consider angering and frustrating. Since it was early, and I am not used to dreams making me feel like this, I thought I'd go back to sleep and try again. The experience I had was well worth it.
I did not sleep immediately, but fell into a half doze in which my subconscious seemed to be firing all sorts of unformed mages, just shapes, really, across my vision. It was like being in the midst of pure chaos. I was quite lucid at this time.
I noticed that, as I focused on a particular object, my conscious mind would try to define it somehow, and, once defined, the object started to look more and more like what my conscious mind said it was. For example, one of the objects was large, jagged and white. All of a sudden, I thought "that looks like a sea coast cliff." Instantly, the object started to become more and more like a cliff. I could start to see a dark ocean beneath it, and trees and buildings atop it.
I decided to back off from judging what the things were, and started to just observe them. Eventually I started to fall into the dream state and found myself being bashed and crushed by the objects. I started to resist, and found myself dreaming about something that seemed totally unrelated, with no lucidity.
I wonder if this is how dreaming really happens. The subconscious mind just starts throwing out "stuff", and the conscious starts trying to figure out what it really is. This mixture of raw thought and judgment arises into dreams. I imagine that the only reason I was confronted by it so directly was that the angry emotion I felt simply had the subconscious creating "stuff" on overdrive, and because of the early morning half-waking state.
Thoughts?
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